i started to get an inkling at 19 about to turn 20 right after high school graduation because i started having vivid girlxgirl fantasies and i started writing/roleplaying gay male characters.
Also i realize now that i was super sexually repressed as a young teen and a kinda "ethical horndog" male character I roleplayed once was how I channeled all this and all my repressed desire. Around my early twenties I was starting to realize how sex-shaming the church was against women in particular. And how fucked up their sexist "you MUST be a virgin til marriage" rhetoric to girls especially was.
I think by now i realized that in my late teens /early twenties i had SO much repressed desire and attraction that practically burst through the dam after my HS graduation.
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Also i realize now that i was super sexually repressed as a young teen and a kinda "ethical horndog" male character I roleplayed once was how I channeled all this and all my repressed desire. Around my early twenties I was starting to realize how sex-shaming the church was against women in particular. And how fucked up their sexist "you MUST be a virgin til marriage" rhetoric to girls especially was.
I think by now i realized that in my late teens /early twenties i had SO much repressed desire and attraction that practically burst through the dam after my HS graduation.
Sorry if this is TMI .