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Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I think I maybe had a heart attack or similar last night? The last time I had similar symptoms I was in the ICU for someone else and at first the nurses were like "of course you're stressed out" and then one noticed the literal flood of sweat pouring off me onto the nurse station counter, slapped a blood pressure cuff on me, and I ended up in a wheelchair and admitted to the ER and told yeah I'd just had a heart attack and when had I last eaten/drank/slept?

Last night was almost the same symptoms down to it starting when I stood up from the toilet, except my vision didn't tunnel that I noticed. I was pouring sweat and had such loud roaring in my ears I couldn't hear anything else, and felt super numb and clumsy and pretty sure (but not scared, just resigned) that I was dying.

Now I'm kind of scared I might kick the bucket Elvis style. Plus I'm weirded out that despite the world in general going to shit, I'm not currently (*knocks wood*) dealing with getting a dying relative to the ICU literally the second my final exam week for the last classes of my bachelor's degree were over (and so having not eaten or slept for two days.)

I don't want to go to the doctor, because I always get the same "eat less, exercise more, no you won't be prescribed meds you disgusting fatty" response to everything.

Dude I'm up to an average of eight miles of walking/hiking a day, I haven't eaten meat in three decades, I've never smoked or drank or done drugs, I hate soda, yeah I do eat a lot but does he deny all his patients medication because they're not perfect or what? Random medical personnel keep being shocked that I haven't been prescribed meds for my high blood pressure and cholesterol, and I got a form letter from my GP's office after my last checkup saying that I would/should be started on thyroid meds that ended with the doctor's addition that he wanted to wait and see and in the meantime I should... wait for it... eat less and exercise more.

Hell, my doctor wouldn't even vaccinate me for polio because "you'll never need it in the US, you can get the travel booster if you go somewhere where it's endemic..." so... Afghanistan? Dude I just want the last recommended vaccine I never got because my parents were crazy antivaxxers, while insurance still pays for them. Especially as polio is a 4 shot series and if I did want to go to India or wherever, I would have to start getting the shots months beforehand.

I kind of want a new doctor, but I've never tried because my doctor thinks I'm a hypochondriac and would presumably put in my file that I'm doctor-shopping. I don't want pain meds, hell, I've never even mentioned that I've had chronic migraines since I was 9 that I just take ibuprofen for. No, dude, I just want you to treat me like you do your thin patients and not, say, dismiss stabby chest pain and coughing up pink froth as my needing a different purse strap.

I hope last night was just a panic attack but it didn't feel like it; I showered after my hearing returned to normal and I could stand up, to get the buckets of cold sweat off me. Idk if I should go to the doctor when I know what I'll be told until I miraculously drop 40 lbs.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I think you need to find a new doctor. The worst that can happen they are going to be dismissive and you already can deal with it.
Saying from a experience as another fat person, sometimes they are being "blah blah fat, blah blah get thin" but still do their job. And sometimes they are actually okay

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, I have something that might help you! Firstly, I’m sorry you have an asshole for a doctor. Secondly, ask the office for a copy of your medical records, and thirdly, read this article:
https://www.buzzfeed.com/alanavalko/viral-medical-binder-tiktok

My SIL did this after twenty years of being dismissed, and her new doctor found that she has POTS and ME/CFS, because she had all the tests, scans, etc and could shut down the BS fast. That allowed them to weed out the noise and get to the chronic issues she had.

Also, tell your doctor to fuck off and actually treat you instead of being dismissive. What a jerk he is.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I think you need a new doctor, too. Not just for a better experience re: bedside manner (though that's enough reason, IMO!) but for better quality healthcare because your doctor isn't giving that to you if he's unable to listen to you and take you seriously. I'm sure you know this, but if you're dealing with hypothyroidism, then naturally you're going to face more difficulty losing weight than the average person. That's how hypothyroidism works, unfortunately.

I'm also overweight (but currently losing weight and getting into better shape) with thyroid issues AND diabetes and my doctor has never lectured me about it or acted like an asshole about prescribing my medication. If possible, he's even more tickled than I am about my recent weight loss and improved cholesterol/bloodwork than I am, and was congratulating me at my recent appointment. He's smart enough to know that patients struggle, and being judgy and awful won't help them, and he's a damn good doctor. They're rare, but they're out there.

In the meantime, I'm sorry this happened to you and I hope you can get the help you need.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

even a good doctor could be bad *for you*. And a so-so doctor do just the thing that'd help you.

I thought there's some signes of heart atack, like you can't smile or touch your nose with eyes closed.

You can do small things in the meanwhile: do a blood pressure diary + walk for 30 minutes (can be 15+15) every day.

It could be ypur blood sugar or something else not life threatening. People often faint when standing up too quickly. Maybe your iron is very low or something. It's good that you're thinking about how to deal with it. Better than ignoring.