[ SECRET POST #132 ]

[shahni.livejournal.com]

⌈ Secret Post #132 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 01 pages, 18 secrets from Secret Submission Post #019.
Secrets Not Posted: 0 broken links, 0 not!secrets, 0 not!fandom.
Next Secret Post: Tomorrow, Friday, May 18th, 2007.
Current Secret Submission Post: Here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[geminion.livejournal.com]

1. Anyone who knows me will not be surprised by this, but YES.

3. Oh man, if I had ANY free time left, I would join this game. It looks so cool. @_@ I love gritty post-apocalyptic urban settings and secret organizations and asjkhdkjhfkjd *_*

6. I know how you feel. I've been guilty of the same, both the leaving part and the missing part. In my experience, I've learnt that people don't care about these kinds of things as much as you think they do. I doubt they think badly of you for leaving, and while I know that popping up out of nowhere is weird... if you ever get the chance to talk to them again, jump for it.

11. Dude, that's awful. Why do you keep playing? ;_;

12. Okay, I really need to check this anime out.

13. AHAHAHA. What comic is that?

15. I wish I could spam this a thousand times to some people I used to know.

16. I consider myself a pretty casual member of this fandom (if you're talking about MGS, that is), and I'm a little afraid I'll feel the same way as you in the future because I do sort of think the same way as the first part of the secret. On the other hand, I haven't met one fandom that wasn't self-absorbed, bitchy, clique-ish, pretentious and backstabbing, so... no, I don't think this fandom is one of the worst. By a long shot.

Maybe I'll change my mind a few years from now.

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[(Anonymous)]

I was feeling kind of depressed when I wrote that secret, and it isn't literally true; there are times when I do have fun, and that keeps me in the game. Just... the performance anxiety can be really bad at times, that's all.

Re: 11

[geminion.livejournal.com]

Ah, see, I can understand that. At least, I think I've been in a game where I felt the same. :c I stayed because I was fond of the people and the characters, but it can definitely be hard when something that should be a fun game starts causing you stress.

Is the anxiety related to keeping your characters IC or your writing abilities or what?

Re: 11

[(Anonymous)]

It's just kind of about the general format of the game. It's a really huge game with a lot going on, and the general caliber of play is very good, so it can be an extremely overwhelming experience at times. I also usually do serious roleplaying and not humor/crack, so I worry about my ability to be funny.

Re: 11

[geminion.livejournal.com]

OMG OKAY I totally know what you mean. Well, no, I don't, because the game I'm in is fairly serious, but the people I play with really like to joke around and do humour/crack RP, and I always freeze up when it gets there. I just don't think I'm good at humour/crack. And I believe a good many people in my game are far better writers, which always flusters me a little since most of them are also younger than me. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough to be there. The game's always moving along at breakneck speed and there's literally hundreds of characters, and at times, I just can't keep up.

Not to turn this into a ME ME ME thing. XD But you know, from the sounds of it, at least one person really enjoys playing with you. And if I'm mistaken about that... I hope the game stays good enough to keep you in it, and I hope the fun you have more often than not outshines your anxiety. I don't know if it'll mean anything, but you're definitely not alone in feeling this, and I bet more than one person in that game also feels the same way. That's what I try to keep in mind when I start beating myself up. We're always our worst critics, and all that, yeah?

TL;DR D:

Re: 11

[(Anonymous)]

Heh, no worries about tl;dr! I appreciate your thoughts, and I'll keep it in mind. I know this is kind of an "everybody hurts" thing, really...

[(Anonymous)]

3. AND THEY LOVE YOU, BELIEVE IT. -SHOT FOR BAD!DUB NARUTO REFERENCE-

[geminion.livejournal.com]

So, if I ever was crazy enough to join, would you recommend the Zerodantai or the Kuushuugou? Because I honestly don't know which one I'd want to be in. XD

[grayout.livejournal.com]

Not that anon, but:

Order or chaos? *dies* Pretty much a choice between those two.

Zerodantai = specified leaders, orderly planning/scheming, corporate, sneaky evil with a twist of violent militarism.

Kuushuugou = jumbled mass of good-hearted pacifists, vengeful anti-Zero "freedom fighters," pure crazy terrorists that just want to blow shit up.

We have like twice as many Kuushuu as Zeroes right now, but half of them are peaceful/non-terroristic and so it kinda evens out.

/pimpingowngame

:D?

[geminion.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU CASE. What's the time commitment like? I really, really love the concept of ACAW, and it looks like it has great people, but I know my friends would kill me if I joined another game. XD I'd have to force myself to only make one character, but... XD

[grayout.livejournal.com]

Depends on where your character is, activity's pretty flexible. Ihavea9-6jobandlike17charactersUH

Glad you like the concept though! *dies*

[the-lady-lamb.livejournal.com]

It kind of also depends on your ability to spread yourself out. CaseislikewhoawithercharacternumbersIcan'tevenbelievethem. I can just barely handle two...and I'm online all. Day. Everything kind of measures up to what you're good at, I guess.