[ SECRET POST #1620 ]

[case]

⌈ Secret Post #1620 ⌋


Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


01.
[Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae wo Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai]



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02.
[Hetalia]


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03.
[Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha]


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04.
[Michael Silas/Asiel Hardison, Lady Gaga's dancers]


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05.
[Tiger & Bunny]


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06.
[Evangelion]


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07.
[Zero Punctuation]


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08.
[The Catherine Tate Show]


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09.
[Grimgrimoire]


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10.
[wonderful days, guyver, cowboy bebop, texhnolyze, togainu no chi, black lagoon, samurai champloo, aishiteruze baby, tenjo tenge]


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11.
[X-Men: First Class]


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12.
[Tales of the Abyss]


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13.
[Human Target]


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14.
[A Song of Ice and Fire]


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15.
[Masterchef Australia]


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16.
[Sucker Punch]


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17.
[Mystique]


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18.
[Workaholics]


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19.
[Mark Reads]


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20.
[Jamie Campbell Bower ]


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21.
[Hey Arnold!]












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22. [SPOILERS for Homestuck]



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23. [SPOILERS for Gintama]



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24. [SPOILERS for Kamen Rider Kabuto]



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25. [SPOILERS for Loveless]



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26. [SPOILERS for Doctor Who]



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27. [SPOILERS for Mockingjay]



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28. [SPOILERS for Kung Fu Panda 2]

















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29. [TRIGGER WARNING for non-con]



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30. [TRIGGER WARNING for rape]

[Game of Thrones]


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31. [TRIGGER WARNING for eating disorders]



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32. [TRIGGER WARNING for rape]



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33. [TRIGGER WARNING for transphobia?]



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34. [TRIGGER WARNING for rape]

[SPN]


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35. [TRIGGER WARNING for rape, pedophilia]



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36. [TRIGGER WARNING for eating disorders]



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37. [TRIGGER WARNING for self-injury, suicide]

[Manic Street Preachers]






Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 00 pages, 000 secrets from Secret Submission Post #231.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 1 2 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big ], [ 0 - repeats ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments and concerns should go here.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

that's nice. i will never forgive you for what you did to people who weren't even involved in your drama, so.

hope you sign up for DBT to be quite fucking honest

[leafing.livejournal.com]

There was plenty of warning throughout that thread, you know. Like the part where I said I had been cutting and would be happy to provide photographic evidence. It was the next natural step after I had been egged on.

I don't even know what that is, but I will have you know that I have been and continue to see a therapist regularly.

[(Anonymous)]

the thread expanded all in one go before the picture was screened and honestly it wasn't just the picture.

i'm not angry with you for feeling the way you did - i can't be because i've felt the same way myself. it's just that you seem to have classed the entirety of sf_d as though they were egging you on when in fact there are hundreds of members in that comm, most of whom did not post in that thread - and some of whom, like me, were harmed by just reading the thread and your responses in particular. i wish you could acknowledge that, that's all.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

There's no "seem" about it. I highly doubt that anything anyone will ever say or show to me will convince me of anything other than that that community is an antagonistic, poisonous community full of people who will readily not only lash out at others as cruelly as they can manage at the drop of a hat, but also eat their own at the slightest sign of a mistake.

I do acknowledge that what I did was a bad idea, and also harmful to a handful of people. But I also refuse to apologize for it. Hate me all you want, feel free to tell me that I should go kill myself or cut myself with a pine needle, or that I don't give a shit about other people and should be locked up, say whatever you want to say and do whatever you want to do, it's just not happening.

[(Anonymous)]

...i wouldn't tell you to go cut yourself or kill yourself. stop implying that i would do that, it's disgusting.

good to know you care more about your pride than the people you hurt, i guess. please don't stop the therapy any time soon, jesus christ.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

That's just the type of behavior I've been conditioned to expect. I the community kept its members on a leash, maybe I wouldn't have such thoughts. It is a disgusting thing. And it's something that's actually happened, on multiple occasions.

Yeah, there you have it, I'm too proud to apologize just like I care about plants more than I care about people, which is what started this whole mess in the first place. Care to know a secret? This is a secrets community, after all. I originally got into plants as a result of a suicidal moment following a sexual assault. During and since that time, plants did a shit-ton more for me than people ever did. I planted a tree and decided that I couldn't kill myself until after it flowered. And I had, and continue to have, to keep on doing such things because people will never be able to help me the way plants do.

That tree flowered last week. It's only a couple of years old, but it's more accepting of my mental issues than anyone else. It's gorgeous.



Honestly, I'm not worth getting upset over. I'll just be over here watering my plants with my white woman's tears.

I'll keep going to therapy.

[(Anonymous)]

well, if we're going to talk about being conditioned to expect certain behaviour, guess what i've been conditioned to expect from you?

please never post that plant picture in the gardening community because every time i see your fucking username i want to throw up. it is fucking horrible even talking to you now and i don't know why i bothered when it's clear you do not actually give a fuck. i have tried to keep a level head but honestly even your fucking username makes me feel sick and seeing you in unrelated communities makes me terrified and i can't fucking stop it. when i saw what you'd posted in sf_d i was fucking out of my mind for DAYS. i hurt myself for the first time in quite a while just to get the images out of my head. and i did nothing to you.

see, i can do the manipulative guilt-trip too. but at least my guilt-trip doesn't include photos.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

I already posted that picture in the gardening community a day or two ago.

[rayiroth.livejournal.com]

Eh, I used to talk to you back in 06ish, then I got stalked off LJ and was too scared to publicly admit that I'm here and such. I just worked out who you are.

May I just say I've always looked up to you, and I still do. Just let you know that.

[(Anonymous)]

then you're just as much of a shitty human being as she is

or should i post photos of my own cuts to get sympathy now? i don't know what the accepted protocol is in these situations.

[(Anonymous)]

you admire her for being a manipulative hateful little shit who admits that she doesn't care how many people she hurts

um okay

[leafing.livejournal.com]

That's touching, but probably not something that you should admit in public.

[(Anonymous)]

oh thanks for the heads up, i now know not to bother checking my communities filter until your post has been buried. i don't want a repeat of what happened when i stumbled across a post you made in crazymeds, after all!

seriously, you should print off the conversation you and i have just had and take it to your fucking therapist.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

I considered printing off the whole debacle since it's been the cause of great distress for quite a while. Maybe I'll do that.

[(Anonymous)]

I guess I shouldn't be surprised that a transphobe like you would have an icon of one of a character that is an extremely offensive caricature of a trans woman.

I bet you even think she's just a crossdressing guy.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

I think she's adorable. That's what I think.

Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[(Anonymous)]

Here is someone you hurt really badly with your shitty behavior: http://sfd-anon.livejournal.com/50794.html?thread=396260202#t396260202

and since I know you won't click, because lol cesspool: really wish i hadn't decided to check anon now that i know all this old leafing shit is getting dredged up.

i have never been triggered like that before. jfc i am so anxious and angry and wound up now.

she is disgusting. maybe i should be empathetic, i don't care, i really can't even put into words how vile i find her.

Re: Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[leafing.livejournal.com]

Why would I bother apologizing to someone who's that disgusted with me? They've formed their opinion.

Re: Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[(Anonymous)]

Do you... not understand WHY they're disgusted with you

What the fuck

How are you this dense

Re: Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[leafing.livejournal.com]

I believe I've admitted several times that I don't understand people.

Re: Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[(Anonymous)]

it's not about making them like you. it's about making up for the hurt you've caused

jesus christ

Re: Hey maybe you should apologize instead of defending yourself

[leafing.livejournal.com]

A couple of words isn't going to fix that.

[corvigryph.livejournal.com]

I heard about that thread but didn't read it. I am so sorry those assholes egged you on :/

[(Anonymous)]

Nobody egged her on. She did her manipulative little guilt trip all on her own.

She is deliberately misrepresenting what happened to paint herself as a martyr.

[leafing.livejournal.com]

http://leafing.livejournal.com/414682.html?thread=2423770#t2423770

Boy yeah look at all that fuckin misrepresentation

Fuck you