[ SECRET POST #1847 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #1847 ⌋


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[fscom.livejournal.com]

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[(Anonymous)]

I don't know whether this helps, but you're not alone with that reaction, OP. It's not the way society tells us it's supposed to be, but a lot of the time it's the way it is. Maybe you can find a therapist who understands that?

[(Anonymous)]

Then again, the show does go out of it's way to say there's something wrong with that mentality. I seriously doubt you want a Sherlock in your life, OP.

[urplesquirrel.livejournal.com]

It makes sense. Fighting for your life, whether in a war or a battle against cancer, gives you a clear sense of purpose. There's a specific goal and it's more important than most other goals you can give yourself.

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

Another cancer survivor here, and yeah, it does make all the priorities a lot clearer, doesn't it? And reminding yourself that you might get hit by a bus tomorrow just plain isn't the same thing. I can't say I miss the cancer, but I mist the clarity.

In my case I've gone and gotten impassioned about the world again; I pay more attention to politics and I'm one hell of a lot more likely to speak up when I see an injustice. It helps some. On the good days anyway. Makes me feel like I'm not wasting my presence on the planet.

[(Anonymous)]

cancer gave me focus and meaning. Now I have nothing

OP, I think you really need to say these things to your therapist. If they're any way decent at their job, they'll be able to help and guide you towards getting new things in your life to get really stoked about and focused on.

It's actually completely understandable to be at a loss for direction now that the cancer is gone; normal even, and it's quite encouraging that you realise yourself that this is the problem. It's like, you were all geared up for a fight, and then suddenly the war is over and you don't know what to do.

Sorry, I might be projecting a bit, but I've just gone through something similar myself, so I think I might have an inkling of how you feel.

I'm glad you're well again OP. I hope you can find great new things to go fight and live for.

[greenhoodloxley.livejournal.com]

I think it's understandable. You knew what you were dealing with, fighting against with the cancer.

I hope you find something, OP. I think you can do anything you desire. Sometimes it's just hard to figure out what that is.

[(Anonymous)]

OP-- I know exactly how you feel. Not a cancer survivor, but after having been responsible for keeping people alive and working, and then having to leave that position and go to a "normal" life, I miss how it made me feel. I might have been constantly injured, seen others constantly injured, constantly in danger of being maimed or killed, but I miss it.

I really can't explain why.

[insanenoodlyguy.livejournal.com]

Obviously your text indicates your not a masochist, so I think I'll steal a word used above in my hypothesis: Clairty. You miss the clarity of priority and the subsequent order that comes with it. Which doesn't mean you need somebody telling you what to do every second either, but more self-order. You had a life wherein you knew what had to be done, and how to do it, and it was working, cause hey, your still here.

Sure, you have goals, there's still things that need to get done, but that urgency is gone. Of course it was urgent then, there were lives at stake! The priorities were damn clear cut, and what you have now lacks that kind of immediate necessity to respond, kinda leaving you with a "meh" towards things as they are now, cause they are kinda "meh" in comparison, even if they are important in and of themselves. You don't really want the sucky parts of it back, and there were sucky parts, but you miss how you felt and how you were when the suck was on.

That something like what'd you say? I'm probably projecting a bit here.

[(Anonymous)]

Person above again.

>That something like what'd you say?

This is it exactly. Exactly it. Especially not missing the suck, but missing who I was in it.

Thank you so much for helping to give words to what I know. It makes a lot more sense.

Thank you for taking the time to help me out, even if you don't know me. You're a great person.

[insanenoodlyguy.livejournal.com]

Well, if that helped you out, then I'm glad I could!

[(Anonymous)]

For what it's worth, I wish I had a Watson.

[(Anonymous)]

I feel that way myself. I find myself without purpose too and I just sorta wish I could find something to do with myself.

Not really helpful, but you're not alone.