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fandomsecrets2012-09-20 07:02 pm
case) wrote in fandomsecrets2012-09-20 07:02 pm
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⌈ Secret Post #2088 ⌋
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OP
(Anonymous) 2012-09-21 04:04 am (UTC)(link)And thank you. Thank you very much, because this honestly makes so much sense. Right now I feel like I'm medicating myself with "normal" life. Trying to follow a strict regimen and force it down so that I can get used to it.
But if I look at it, I quietly scoff at myself. This isn't what I want to be doing, and I feel like... I feel like I'm dying. Everything is washing out, and there's nothing in front of me, and all I have are intense, dark slashes behind me that I'm trying to paint over with the more subdued, safe colors. Oh god this is sounding so retarded, but it's all I can think of to articulate it.
Thank you for saying something. It does help to know that... it's okay to be different. And that it's okay to want to keep fighting.
Thank you for saying that I may feel alone, but I don't have to be lonely.
Re: OP
Sometimes we have to be "normal" to get along. But I don't think we should ever have to mimic it so intensely we feel we're not living authentically.