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SO.

I'm finally done with finals, Christmas break is here, YAY!, etc.

But also in the last couple of weeks I have begun to see a new therapist, because my previous one had to go on maternity leave. I was super nervous because I've never had a therapist I liked before my last one. Luckily, he's a cool-ish dude who really seems to know what he's doing. Very professional. And he specializes in addiction, which is really the root of most of my problems. I have extremely severe depression, ADHD, and anxiety issues, all of which is made worse in varying degrees by the fact that I have been on prescription painkillers since I was 15. My mother is a pharmacist, I am actually a registered pharmacy tech (not practicing, never WILL be practicing), so we have medicine in the house. And I take it.

Anyway, I've been talking to my new therapist dude about it, and he basically told me that my options are: remain an addict, go to a rehab facility, or join Alcoholics Anonymous (we have Narcotics Anonymous here, but it's really sketchy, apparently). I have neither the time nor money for a fancy rehab center, so AA is basically it. And I am terrified by the thought of going to a meeting. It's something I've never thought about before, and I don't know what to expect. So basically I was hoping someone would be able to give me some advice, especially someone with experience in 12-step programs?

TL;DR AA IS SCARY AND I DON'T WANT TO GO

Protip: You'll always be an addict. But AA can be a great support network. Even if you don't like the group meetings, having a sponsor to talk you through rough times is a godsend.

I know I'll always be an addict. It was poor word choice on my part. I suppose I meant "remain a drug user" ??

And that's actually one of the things that freaks me out, is the sponsor system. :/ idk, I just don't really like talking to people much, and what if I don't like them, or they don't like me? etc.

You can absolutely change your sponsor. And it's not really a formal thing where you show up and some boss points a finger and says "You will be a pair!" When you meet somebody at the meetings who seems like a good fit with you -- preferably someone who's had some success with the program -- you actually ask them if they would like to be your sponsor. And all that really means is you get together one-on-one sometimes and help each other. Your sponsor isn't *better* than you, and if you decide it's not working between the two of you, you don't have to continue working with them. You can pick someone else, or pick no one, and just attend the group meetings, if that's more your speed.

And I barely said a word to anyone for a long time at meetings, and it took a while to find that one person I was comfortable talking with one-on-one. And that's okay. It's all part of a process, and we all figure our best way through it as we go along.

AA can really be amazing when it comes to forming a support group, particularly since most [if not all] of the people there *will* have some idea of what your struggling with and how hard it can be to overcome.

So, I'd say go ahead and give it a shot since it really could help. Also, since you're nervous, it couldn't hurt to check out their website/brochures and stuff they have on there so you have a better idea of what'll be going on when you go. I don't if it'd help, but I always find it easier to face new things if I have a general idea of what'll go on.

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