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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2013-02-02 03:08 pm

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Bad day

(Anonymous) 2013-02-02 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I hate acting like a raging bitch. I snapped at my dad this morning for no reason - and I mean no reason, there was nothing to provoke me. I just snapped and said something stupid, and I know I hurt his feelings. I have no idea what happened, there's nothing I can think of that could have made me angry - my dad didn't do anything in particular, I'm not unusually stressed or anything, and to make everything worse my dad has actually been helping me with something today and I'm feeling really grateful for that (and I have no problems with being grateful, so it can't be some weird passive-aggressive reaction to that). I just snapped for no reason and I feel awful. What the hell, self? It's been eating at me all day, and I'm not good with apologies when it comes to my parents (it's just not something we do, for some reason), so I have no idea how to make it up to him. I just feel bad. And I feel bad for feeling bad, like I'm indulging in my own feelings instead of feeling bad for him because he was hurt by what I said, or something? I just - ugh. I hate myself sometimes. I mean, I do stupid shit sometimes like everyone does, but I really thought I was better than doing stupid and hurtful things that are so utterly pointless and without explanation, for no reason. It's just so stupid.

Sorry for throwing this at you guys, I needed to vent, I guess? Blah.

Re: Bad day

(Anonymous) 2013-02-02 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/533302

This isn't a solution to your problems but it always helps me when I'm feeling irrationally aggressive.

Re: Bad day

(Anonymous) 2013-02-02 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
DA

That... was amazing.

Re: Bad day

(Anonymous) 2013-02-03 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
there's Miami shark too but I prefer Sydney because of the nuke ending
elaminator: (North and South: Thornton)

Re: Bad day

[personal profile] elaminator 2013-02-02 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Anon, I think we've all been there at some point. No one is perfect. You made a mistake; it's unfortunate, but it happens.

If you can't bring yourself to apologize with words, try something else. Maybe you could write him a letter or give him a card thanking him for his help? Or ask him if he would like to spend some time with you, then do something together you know he'll enjoy? Maybe even just hug him, or 'treat' him to a favorite pastry or something. IDK what you're comfortable with, but there's plenty of ways to show someone that you care for them and regret what happened without saying the words 'I'm sorry'. (Though words are good too, of course.)

Re: Bad day

(Anonymous) 2013-02-02 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It really sounds like an apology would solve all of this. You're miserable and obsessing about what a horrible person you are, and your dad is probably wondering what he did wrong.
Sometimes people snap at each other when they're distracted, hungry, tired, or worried about something. I'm pretty sure it happens to everyone. You're beating yourself up for something trivial...
Hopefully someone else has advice about what to do if you're "not good with apologies" though :\
intrigueing: (happy nine)

Re: Bad day

[personal profile] intrigueing 2013-02-02 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Apologizing can't really hurt. It might feel really awkward, but it'll be worth it afterwards if you just explain that it was just a stupid thing you did for no reason.