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⌈ Secret Post #2246 ⌋

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[Mighty Morphin Power Rangers]

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[Downton Abbey]

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[Death Note]

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[Star Trek TNG]

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[Girls]

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[Vampire Diaries]

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[My Little Pony: Friendship is magic]

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[Spartacus]

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[CSI]

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[The Bretts]

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[Steam Powered Giraffe]

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[Being Human]

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[The Young Ones]

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[God Bless America]

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[Nerdfighteria]

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[Downton Abbey]

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[Disney's hunchback of Notre dame (Frollo/Esmeralda)/Titanic (Cal/Rose)/Once Upon a Time (Rumpelstiltskin/Belle)/Labyrinth (Jareth/Sarah)/ Harry potter(Ginny/Tom)/ Game of thrones (Sansa/Petyr)/ The Mummy/The Mummy Returns (Imhotep/Evelyn)/ Phantom of The Opera (Phantom/Christine)]

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I think you should see a therapist. Talking about and working through your experiences might help you to accept them and move on.

I have a similar aversion to sexuality/other's sexuality towards me, too, though I was never molested as a child. I was...well, when I was very young I noticed that rubbing *down there* felt good. I didn't understand why it felt good, but I liked it. I spent my childhood hiding in the bathroom/my room and, ehhh, humping pillows or blankets. Whenever I was caught I was scolded, but I was never told *why* what I was doing was wrong. When I finally was old enough to realize what I had been doing, I was horrified and sickened. I hated myself and recoiled from anything sexual. I still feel ill and extremely guilty if I'm in a sexual experience/reading/hearing about anything sexual.

I am still a virgin and have no intention of ever having sex.

I'm so sorry you had to experience that as a child, OP. I hope you can find peace with it someday, and good luck!

What you were doing wasn't wrong! It sucks that you were raised in an environment where you were scolded and made to think that sex and sexual desire was wrong. Really the only thing you could've done that was wrong was do it publicly... it's totally normal for children to explore their sexuality in ways like that (even "playing doctor" with other children is normal)

DA

Might be where I'm from, by what does "playing doctor" mean?

Like, pretending you're a doctor and "examining" other kids by looking at/touching their private parts, or at least that's what it was here.

Basically what anon just said, mutual touching of private parts and such. Usually it's not even sexual, it's just kids exploring their bodies and learning the concept of sexuality, what parts of your body have a sexual connotation, etc. Not all kids do this obviously, but it's extremely common.

Sort of related, but one time I had a friend over in high school and we were watching television, and my [then] 8 year old sister ran in from the bathroom in a towel and yelled "Hey, guess what! If you put your crotch up to the faucet it feels really good!" Talk about embarrassing, heh

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