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I have been looking for a job for over six months because the job I have now does not pay me enough to live on, even in a rented room. (And I've had bad experiences in rented rooms, though of course I'll take one if I have no choice.) I lose my place to live in June -- long story but it's definite. If I can't find a better job or a second job by then I'll have to start dipping into my small amount of savings until that runs out and then... become homeless.

There are no government programs to help me monetarily or with food or rent because many have no funding anymore and also because on paper I make too much. But a lot goes toward my insurance which I can't drop because I can't function without my psych meds and the public psych care here is terrible.

So, in short, I'm really desperate. I have been thinking of committing suicide if I can't find a new job by June, because my life will be pretty much over. Other stuff in my life is pretty fucked up too. I don't think I have the nerve but I'm really wishing I did.

(I may not be able to answer replies if anyone chooses to reply but I will see them, and I really wanted to put this up and get it off my chest.)

Jesus, you are breaking my heart.

If you were out of a job, wouldn't you then qualify for government programs?

Anyway, I really really hope that your situation works out and that you don't commit suicide. But I don't have any concrete advice. Just... good luck.

If you were out of a job, wouldn't you then qualify for government programs?

I'm not sure, but I think so.

I know you're going through a terrible time anon, but I hope you don't go through with it. Things might get better but there's no chance of that happening if you aren't here. And while I understand that you're desperate (IDK what I'd do in your situation either), I'm sure there are alternatives. I hope someone else will be able to help you, but until then good luck. :(

ayrt

I think I would qualify for food aid but would still be out of a place to live. Ironically though since I would get unemployment benefits it still might be a better situation than I'm in. (Except I would also lose my health insurance, which I'm hoping not to have to do. Especially since they have a person who helps homeless people at my insurance.)

I think you qualify for Medicaid if you suddenly have no income.

Damn, my heart really goes out for you.

If I were you, I'd start looking for charities that help people in situations like yours - or even go to churches for help, even though I'm not religious.

I've been in a similar situation before, and there are a few back-up plans, even if they're a little absurd. For instance, I tried to become a nun once. I was grasping at straws but I had to do what I could.

Have you tried looking for a job abroad? I know it's far-fetched, but you might have better luck getting a job from a foreign country. If suicide is your only other option, you might as well try everything you can.

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If suicide is your only other option, you might as well try everything you can.

goodness, this

op, I wish you the best

for what it's worth, sweet but distraught anon, i hope everything works out for you. best of luck on the job hunt. are there any temporary things you can apply for to get money in the meantime, like focus groups or research studies? you don't have to answer if i sound dumb and ignorant, i do not know your life.

ayrt

I just wanted to tell you you don't sound dumb or ignorant. It's a good thing to look into. Thank you.

I'm in a very similar situation but my time is up in about 24 days.

I know you stated where you live there are no governments programs, but do they have government programs where people can go and work with a counceller to help job searching and make resumes and cover letters? That can really help. They'll make sure you get a job and offer you programs to take to buff up your skill set.

Have you looked into going to shelters once you lose your place (if you don't find a place before hand)? That is not ideal in anyway, but the people there might be able to help you out.

I have also been suicidal in the past, but things do get better marginally over time. It's not great, it's not perfect, life will blow, but you'll be alive. If you need to talk to anyone, feel free to PM me. I might not be able to help, but I can listen and sometimes that's a start.

ayrt

They do actually have a place to help with job searches, yes. They can't necessarily land me a job but they can help with my resume and cover letters, and I'm going to go to one on my next day off. I didn't even know about it until recently or I'd have gone before. Thanks for reminding me of it.

No problem. Hope it helps you out.

Maybe try Teaching English abroad? It's something I've been looking into. I'm thinking maybe Korea (for myself)? It sounds like they pay everything (housing, utilities, etc. and they take first-time teachers) but your groceries and you earn approx USA $2,000 a month. And you can certify online w/just a few hours of online learning and it doesn't cost much (depends on the certification, but a basic one is just a few hundred dollars (and yes i do know that's a lot of money when it's running out ,but it's still way less than a single college class. I'm unemployed, living w/Mom, and my money is running out).

also, dunno if it's true, but I've heard that China takes teachers that taught for at least 2-3 years and they can earn up to $50,000 and even provide them w/Chinese language classes.

this guy has a book about doing that in various countries that I'm thinking of buying http://www.nomadicmatt.com/ Also, people have various blogs talking about their experiences.

There's also http://www.eslcafe.com/ to learn about it.

That's really something that I should consider. I'm not sure where I'd go but yeah, it's something I should look into. Thank you.

Certification is a rip off. I applied to teach in Japan and they did not require certification.

I am so sorry, OP. I hope things get better for you.

I am in a very similar position to you. I am disabled, but only get Medicaid and food stamps, still waiting to see if I can get SSI. No income, no savings and I'm going to lose my house soon due to a mortgage issue. Tons of good thoughts to you, I know how hard it is.

Wow. I don't want to say when, but you sound a lot like me not that long ago in regards to the work/money/suicide situation. My savings were like my life line, and I was considering clocking out as soon as it hit zero. I even had an estimated date going by the rate shit was dwindling.

I don't know how proud you are, but please consider every option towards managing your financial situation. Odd jobs, overseas like has been suggested, shelters, whatever. Ask for help, whether it's a second look at your resume, applying to temp agencies, pulling any a
nd all fsvours. Try to see if you can manage two jobs. Maybe a graveyard shift.

Most of all, please don't merit your life according to status.

ayrt

The job I have now is a graveyard shift job, but I can't work two eight-hour shifts in one day without falling asleep at one of them. I do want to find something for my days/nights off, or something that isn't a whole eight-hour shift, but I haven't had any luck yet.

I guess status bothers me in a sense, like... I really didn't think my life would turn out like this. But mostly I'm just afraid of ending up in a miserable living situation with no way out.

Double shifts are crazy taxing. Do you get the week on, week off style of shifts (like five days on, then five off), or any sense of regularity? At one point I did graveyards at a convenience store, and then other graveyards at a grocery on my days "off". Kind of a stroke of luck back then that they synced together.

any call centres you can try for padding income?

I probably sound like an ass with my questions, especially with this one, but do you think perhaps you are judging yourself too harshly, and overestimating your expectations?

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