[ SECRET POST #2280 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2280 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 04 pages, 080 secrets from Secret Submission Post #326.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[quantumreality]

I think that's true of a lot of fanfic writers to some extent, but I think for fic writers in general the fun reward is just in getting fic out there and seeing people critique it and give you warm praise fuzzies or good tips on how to improve your writing. :)

[(Anonymous)]

Trust me, it's overrated. When I achieved that status, I felt like a mannequin on display, and during that brief BNF status, hardly any of the friendships felt genuine. Just my two cents.

[(Anonymous)]

It IS overrated. I've found it stressful, disappointing and not worth it at all, that's why I've been pretty much anon for several years now and it feels fucking fantastic. "So, THIS is how fandom truly feels like!"

When you've reached BNF status, people watch your every move and judge your every post. Every opinion of yours, whether it's fandom related or not, gets judged harshly and repeated/reposted elsewhere in posts. Stuff you've said a year or two ago can pop up in some random thread. Fandom never forgets even the smallest, most inane comments you've ever made. The most innocent comments get misunderstood. People hate you for no reason or because you're a BNF.

Which means you have to watch what you say and do ALL THE TIME. Trust me, fandom isn't so fun, relaxing and "rewarding" anymore when you have to walk on eggshells, filter your words, watch out what you say and to which person, at any given time, basically. Because someone always finds that ONE comment you've made that can be taken out of context and then blown out of proportion as people in fandom learn about it. You constantly attract attention from people you've never talked to before and they think they know all about you and your personal life, based on stuff you've said last year in some unrelated comment in someone's private journal.

I don't know how it's with everyone else but eventually (pretty quickly, rather) I've found I couldn't be myself in fandom at all. And like the other poster said, you question the sincerity of new friendships and even some old friendships, because your BNF status can change and influence relationships. You can never be *entirely* sure your friends won't repost your private, locked posts somewhere down the line, for whatever reason, for all to see.

Even if you've never been rude to anyone in fandom, and even if you're the kindest and perfectly reasonable person, people WILL find something negative about you and spread it around. Trust me. Because that's how fandom works.

"A mannequin on display" is a great way of putting it.

[(Anonymous)]

+100000

[(Anonymous)]

It should be "I want it so badly." Not taking anything away from your writing since I doubt I've read it, but proper grammar is right up there with things I look for in stories I read.

[(Anonymous)]

Oops posting fail. This should have been in reply of the original secret.

OMFG