[ SECRET POST #2280 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2280 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Notes:

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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Been there, done that. Write the popular fics, draw the popular art, and interact like your life depends on it. It's not that hard.

But it's also not very fulfilling. And, all things considered, I pretty much regret it.

[(Anonymous)]

Just curious as to why you regret it?

[(Anonymous)]

da but i can tell you why i never want to be a bnf again. 1) i didn't even realize i was one for a long time? but apparently the fact that i was vocal in the main fandom community and produced a ton of fic for a relatively popular pairing that was not the main fandom otp meant that i was. 2) it was awful. one of the most miserable times in my life. people created dupe accounts to get onto my flist just to mock my personal entries behind my back and use facts from my life against me because they disliked that i was "using my power" for a lesser known ship instead of the fandom otp. i was hated for "liking the wrong characters".

and there's no such thing as tone when you're a bnf. for the longest time my twitter bio was a tongue-in-cheek "better than you" (considering all i did was use twitter to live tweet my descent into alcoholism as i dropped out of college I FIGURED THIS WAS OBVIOUSLY A JOKE TO ANYONE WHO VIEWED IT) but no, there were 8 separate threads on the anon meme about it and how i was a bitter slut with an superiority complex. people jumped on anything to try and make me look like a terrible person, while they pretended to be my friends to my face so they could request fic and icons and mixes from me or get me to support the coummnity they were starting by being an active contributing member and advertising it on my flist. (which i gladly provided whenever they asked because well...i thought they were my friends.)

i finally quit that fandom when one of the creators said something offensively homophobic. i commented on the post about it about how i felt disgusted and betrayed as a queer girl, especially because it had become known a segment of the fandom focused around a specific group of characters that creator had been heavily involved in writing/designing, had known about the remark for weeks beforehand on their private lj comm about the group and tried to hide the fact that she had said it because they felt protective of the creator. when the interview with the remark was posted in the main fandom commm, they spent the entire post defending/excusing her homophobia, ripped my comment to shreds and accused me of "being a hysterical child looking to throw a creator under the bus for a little internet validation" before i was dogpiled with hatemail, both anon and not anon over everything i had ever done in that fandom, and my personal details were posted on the anon meme with a caption urging people to find me irl if they lived in nyc.

so yeah. obviously not every bnf has this experience, but i've watched it happen on greater and lesser magnitudes to too many people who became bnfs too many times to ever ever want to be a bnf again. fuck i once saw a girl get run out of fandom who had only ever posted to her personal journal.. never a comm. because the opposing ship group hated what she had posted on her personal journal that damn much.