[ SECRET POST #2296 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2296 ⌋

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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Hey, OP!

I went through something that sounds similar to what you described, only a little earlier. It was a fandom that fundamentally defined my middle-school years, and when personal issues threw me out of it in high school, I wanted nothing more than to go back to the "good old days" when I could just be a part of the activity, talk to people who I thought understood me, and glee over the characters. It didn't help that my real life during that time was awful - clinical depression does that to you - and that I obsessively attached myself to the memory of my favorite characters to feel sane.

But things change. You might not think it will now, or that you'll ever get over the loss of that part of your identity, but eventually you'll find another thing, or group, or friend to call your own, especially if you start to notice all the things that have changed about your life since 2009. It took me almost four years and a shift in life circumstances to overcome my attachment to that fandom, and although I do still remember that period of time fondly, I can look at it more objectively and see both its draws and its flaws, and no longer feel that the best time of my life was in the past.

I don't know your personal circumstances, of course, and I hope it doesn't involve clinical depression, but if you can, ask yourself why you might be so dissatisfied with your current situation that the only thing you can feel alive about is the memory of good times long past. It might be hard to let go and try to find new things that make you happy, but it's possible (as far as I can tell), and you might feel better for it in the long run.

(and I promise it's not a betrayal of the characters you used to love. If they were your friends, they wouldn't want to see you not going on to live because they weren't around, either.)