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⌈ Secret Post #2334 ⌋

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14. [WARNING for suicide]

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[fscom]

14. [WARNING for suicide]
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[cassandraoftroy]

It's good that you didn't do it. I hope you continue to not-do it. I also hope you're in a position where you can try finding different doctors; there has to be some sort of explanation for your chronic pain -- they just haven't found it yet, and different doctors may think of different things to test for. Anyway, I hope things get better for you, OP.

[elaminator]

+1.

I hope you find some answers OP. (Keep searching!) In the meantime when you feel sad or hopeless just remember that there are people who care about you. I'm glad you changed your mind.

[(Anonymous)]

OP:
I've given up on doctors, too many different pains in my chest, my legs, my head, and no one's ever found anything actually wrong with me - but I'm getting better at not wanting to die. Mostly.

It's not perfect, but I would rather be hurting than hurt someone else.

[(Anonymous)]

i've been in the same situation, anon, and i'm so glad that something saved you. i hope you continue to stay strong, no matter what incentive you need to do that. /hugs

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OP:
/hugs.

[dimestoresaint]

Whatever keeps you here, anon. <3

I nearly killed myself because of chronic pain, too, only it was after I was diagnosed. I know it sounds cliche, but if you want to talk I'm here.

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you.

Fibromyalgia? or something different? I think the doctor that finally came up with something to diagnose me with just made it worse, having him write it off as "You're in pain. There's nothing we can do. Have a nice life." (not that I'm bitter or anything)

To staying alive. *raises glass*

<3

[comma_chameleon]

This! I almost hate having that diagnosis because a) constant explaining of "You're in pain. There's nothing we can do. Have a nice life." gets tiring and b) people tend act like it's not a real condition when really it's pretty much just saying "You're in pain. There's nothing we can do. Have a nice life.".

Nevermind the pain, some days I just get tired of being at work and people saying to me, "You look thin/tired/in pain, are you okay?" Yes I know. I know I dropped sixty pounds since getting sick. I know on average I sleep three to four hours a night, yes I'm in pain constantly. Thank you for reminding me. ¬.¬;

[dimestoresaint]

Yeah, it's fibro. I'm sorry you were treated that way; I heard that type of thing from doctors more times than I care to count, but actually the doctor who diagnosed me with fibromyalgia is the first one so far who actually seems interested in finding a solution. Granted, none of the meds he's tried so far have worked... but at least he's trying, unlike the dickbag who told me at age 18 that I'd probably be in pain for the rest of my life, and then couldn't figure out why I burst into tears in his office (I might be a bit bitter myself).

Anyway, can you get a second (or third, or sixth) opinion? It may well be that the guy you saw just didn't know what he was talking about. I know it's frustrating and time-consuming (and expensive if you're in the U.S.) to keep going from doctor to doctor, but it's so worth it when you finally find someone who wants to help.

[(Anonymous)]

He probably didn't - my dad mentioned reading something about Fibro, and I'm pretty sure the doctor just latched on to that to give him something to say (I kind of wish Dad hadn't said anything...) - but I have gone to other doctors before and after that one. I've had more tests than can possibly be healthy, but either they stick with the Fibro diagnosis, look at me like I'm lying just to waste their time, or they stare at me and tell me to take anti-depressants because obviously my mental issues are causing me physical pain...

I get that it's possible, but I was never depressed before I started hurting 24/7, and by now all going to the doctor does is make me wonder if I'm just hallucinating the pain. So I just live with it. I've gotten better at ignoring the pain completely, and when I get really worried over a particularly bad pain or new pain, I just tell my parents so they'll know what killed me if it turns out to actually be a problem.

[dimestoresaint]

I'm sorry. I got burned out on doctors for a while too and stopped looking. I think I still have some issues from all that--I tend to assume that because I look healthy, people won't believe me when I say that I'm in pain. Sometimes that's true, but sometimes it's not, and I've kind of forgotten how to give people the benefit of the doubt.

You're NOT hallucinating though. Just because nobody's figured out what's causing your pain doesn't mean it isn't real.

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, that's how I feel, so I just don't tell people anymore. It's not like they could do anything even if they did believe me.

[(Anonymous)]

I've been in the same situation. I'm glad you found a way to cope with your suicidal feelings about it, something I still struggle with myself. :/ Good luck finding a diagnosis.

[(Anonymous)]

It's not perfect - I still don't let myself drive or do anything potentially lethal (on the worst days that includes leaving the house) because I'm terrified that I might slip up, and the feelings are still there, but I'm living one day at a time. Sometimes I hope the pains turn out to be something that kills me. Sometimes I don't. But I have something to fight for, even if I'm fighting myself.

--Oh, that sounds preachy.

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[pazuzu]

I'm glad you didn't do it, anon. I'm glad you're still here.

[(Anonymous)]

So am I. :)

[(Anonymous)]

I also once held on solely because of how upset I knew my family would be if I died. At the time, I couldn't understand why they would care about me so much - but I knew that they did, and it saved me.

Let's keep hanging on, OP. No regrets.

[(Anonymous)]

On the really bad days I have to wonder about my family being upset if I died, but then I tell myself that I don't want to know if it's just a pretty lie I made up, and that helps too. Either they cry and it's true - not good. Or they don't and it's not - still not good.

No regrets. <3

[(Anonymous)]

i know this feeling too... i am glad you found something to help you feel better, and good luck getting a proper diagnosis

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks!

[silverau]

I'm glad you found something that's helping you deal with those feelings, OP. I hope you find something to do about your chronic pain, too.