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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2013-05-25 04:12 pm

[ FS Anon Meme ]

F!S Anon Meme (the ??th)


Secrets, rants, opinions, anything you want to say about your fandom or a fandom or fandom in general, do it here! Anonymously, of course. Get it all off your chest.

Some ground rules:
1. Going anon is encouraged but not absolutely required (for those who struggle with recaptchas and stuff).
2. No autoplaying/autolooping embeds, or embeds that cover/stretch the screen.
3. No dropping personal info or IRL contact info, etc.

That's about it, though!

(Today's post is below.)

I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
I think I'm going to "disappear" from the internet (and post anon instead of signed in on f!s) for a while. I haven't been around very much lately and my online friends haven't seemed to care. I feel like I put a lot of effort my friendships by making all the first moves and trying to make plans for rl meet-ups. I want someone to care enough about me for once and put some effort into making me feel as if you like me and want to be my friend.

(I'm late to the anon party, I know.)

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
I know that feel, bro *hugs*

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
Aww, I know that feeling. *hug* I disappeared from a forum I used to post to because of that same thing. It really sucks. Don't feel obligated to keep up friendships that drain you. While I'm sure your friends care more about you than it seems, taking a break might help recharge your mental batteries. Whether or not you decide to reappear later is up to you.

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
A break will be good for you. <3

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
I feel your pain, anon. I'm taking a break as well--not exactly for the same reasons but I can still relate.

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
i get u anon. me too. i have had no will to sign in on my sites recently.

Re: I feel like a fucking whiny baby, but...

(Anonymous) 2013-05-27 03:10 pm (UTC)(link)
me too, anon.

I was active. I had my heyday. I was gone for a few months and when I came back the entire landscape had changed and I didn't know anyone. No one knew me. People were leaving for other waters (DW, tumblr, AO3) and I was left behind.

I've faded from fandom and an online presence and I miss the interactions with those I thought were friends. Which meant that I thought they were at a different level of friendship that apparently we were.

Such is life online. Such is fandom.

I miss it, though. Even though I've 'moved on' and kept a few quality friends...I still miss it and I know I can't ever get it back. Feels kind of lonely, though. I still can't bring myself to give up my livejournal even though it's sat unused for a year now, after a few years of fits and starts on trying to get back to it and failing miserably.