[ SECRET POST #2351 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2350 ⌋

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Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

I've been depressed for years. I've also been in fandom for years. I don't think the two are directly related, but one of the ways I hid from having to do things was to read fic. I read fic a lot.

I've just started taking antidepressants. I'm sleeping better, I'm happier, I'm more outgoing, I have more get-up-and-go. Yay. I've also totally lost interest in fandom. I've been getting sick and tired of certain aspects of it for months and I guess I'm just not in the mood to bear with them anymore? I keep booting up my laptop and then noodling around for twenty minutes because there's fuck all to do on there if I'm not reading fic. The fact that I now also have the attention span of a goldfish does not help. I don't know what to do with myself! I'm so bored! What do people who aren't in fandom even DO online?

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[mekkio]

Read articles.
Look up recipes.
Look up DIY projects to do
Go to social networks and meet up with people.

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

Heh. Sorry, that last question was more of a rhetorical one. I have things
to look up online and all, but I've been in fandom for more than half my life and for just about as long as I've had access to the internet and I'm stuck in frustrating habits. I guess I was just looking to vent for a minute. But thanks for answering me!

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

I like reading the something awful forum threads. There are some interesting conversations there!

Also, watch videos and stuff?

Anyway, you just need to get back into your groove, so to speak. Routines change so easily, and I imagine they do even more now that you're in a healthier place! I'm sure you'll find a new equilibrium of things you like online, or maybe you'll find online is not so cool anymore forever and that's okay too! You can still do the e-mail and facebook and twitter thing to keep up with friends and family. There! Technology being useful, without intruding in your real life! :D

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

I feel like that shouldn't sound like a revolutionary idea to me, but it really does. Wow, the last ten years of my life looks even worse looking back at it from where I am now than it felt at the time! Which I guess is a good thing. Thank you for the positivity :)

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

You are very welcome! And it's okay, I've had tons of "duh" moments. Sometimes you just need to hear an idea in a different way or in someone else's words for it to click.

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

I'm glad you're doing good now!

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you!

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[elaminator]

Yay for happiness! Your disinterest in fandom is unfortunate but maybe with time it will return. For now it sounds like you're enjoying life more and that's great. :)

As for what to do online other than fandom...you can always talk to friends...and...uh...there's youtube...

Other things too, I'm certain of it.

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[starphotographs]

I can't offer any advice, because loss of interest in fandom was apparently an anhedonia thing for me, and I have kind of a renewed interest now that I have medication.

But the goldfish attention span might go away. I don't know what you're on or how long you've been on it, but my Wellbutrin made me really scatterbrained and prone to forgetting what I was doing or losing my train of thought for the first week or two. But it resolved itself when my brain got used to it.

Re: Complaining about being happy, ugh

[lunabee34]

While I have always maintained interest in fandom, my level of engagement in fandom has always fluctuated with my mental health. When I was the most depressed I've been in the past ten years, that's when my fannish involvement was highest. When I'm happy or less depressed, it takes up less of my time. So you are not alone, OP. *hugs*