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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2013-06-18 06:48 pm

[ SECRET POST #2359 ]


⌈ Secret Post #2359 ⌋

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[personal profile] transcriptanon 2013-06-18 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[Picture is the cover of the CD "Music from the Motion Picture 'Mona Lisa Smile'", and shows the faces of four attractive young women lined up.]

Watching this movie was weirdly painful for me because I want so badly to be able to be feminine in the way of the girls in the movie. Not all the time, but when I feel like it. But I have a super manly job and I've always been kinda androgynous-leaning-towards-masculine by nature. I feel female, but I never feel feminine, not like these girls. I dress myself up sometimes and look in the mirror, or I try to play with hair and makeup or do girly things sometimes, but I always end up feeling terrible because I can't make it feel natural. I just end up feeling like a huge faker, like I'm crossdressing and shouldn't even be doing this, like it's wrong for me (though I have no problem with actual crossdressers, it's the feeling fake that gets me.) After watching this movie I wanted to cry, because I'll never be pretty and a lady like that.