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Same Anon as the other day...

I hate feeling like this. It's so embarrassing. I went to the doctor with my Mom today, and I just feel worse. I feel like cutting right now. Maybe I should go back to the hospital. Anyone know of nice psych wards in the Chicagoland area?

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself, anon <3

Thanks for checking in! I've been thinking about you and hoping the doctor's visit went well. Sorry to hear you're feeling worse. :( I don't know what to say but I wish I could help. Maybe just try and distract yourself? You said you were an artist (or mentioned supplies for an art project) maybe you could start a new project to try and work out some of these feelings or even just to distract yourself? Or a favorite tv show or something.

*hugs* if you want them. I hope things look up and thanks for keeping us updated.

Don't be embarrassed, OP.

Maybe this can help:

If you cut to express pain and intense emotions
Paint, draw, or scribble on a big piece of paper with red ink or paint
Express your feelings in a journal
Compose a poem or song to say what you feel
Write down any negative feelings and then rip the paper up
Listen to music that expresses what you’re feeling

If you cut to calm and soothe yourself
Take a bath or hot shower
Pet or cuddle with a dog or cat
Wrap yourself in a warm blanket
Massage your neck, hands, and feet
Listen to calming music

If you cut because you feel disconnected and numb
Call a friend (you don’t have to talk about self-harm)
Take a cold shower
Hold an ice cube in the crook of your arm or leg
Chew something with a very strong taste, like chili peppers, peppermint, or a grapefruit peel.
Go online to a self-help website, chat room, or message board

If you cut to release tension or vent anger
Exercise vigorously—run, dance, jump rope, or hit a punching bag
Punch a cushion or mattress or scream into your pillow
Squeeze a stress ball or squish Play-Doh or clay
Rip something up (sheets of paper, a magazine)
Make some noise (play an instrument, bang on pots and pans)

Substitutes for the cutting sensation
Use a red felt tip pen to mark where you might usually cut
Rub ice across your skin where you might usually cut
Put rubber bands on wrists, arms, or legs and snap them instead of cutting or hitting

Source: The Mental Health Foundation, UK

It'll get better. It doesn't seem like it, but you won't always feel like this. *hugs*

Just remember this, OP: this is not the only way things will feel. It CAN feel different. It CAN feel better. And being better - being yourself again - is the best thing in the world.
That's something to look forward to. You're on the way there. :)

You don't have anything to feel embarrassed about, OP -- you wouldn't have anything to feel embarrassed about if you were experiencing physical pain from a broken leg, and depression is as legitimate a medical condition as any physical injury or illness.

I'm sorry that going to the doctor made you feel worse. I don't know if that's because it didn't help, or because it poked around in the things that were at the core of making you feel bad, but I hope that you feel better soon, and that something useful will come out of your doctor visit. I don't know much about the Chicago area, but I hope you find someplace that can help you.

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