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⌈ Secret Post #2386 ⌋

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Comments

[fscom]

06. http://i.imgur.com/6DrKHAe.png

[queerwolf]

*hugs* As sad as it can make you, it's cool that you shared that with your mom. My mom also died of cancer and while I have many awesome memories of her, we didn't really share anything like that.

[(Anonymous)]

I get sad when I'm watching cheesy action flicks like Sharknado because they were the sorts of movies I'd watch with my dad before he died, so I really get you on this OP. YANA.

[deadtree]

here is a giant hug from me to you, OP. It sounds like you had a wonderful relationship with your mom, and I'm so sorry for your loss.

[mekkio]

I feel for you. My dad died back in 2000 and he was a huge sci-fi/fantasy fan. (He's the reason why I am a sci-fi/fantasy geek.) Every time I watch a great sci-fi/fantasy show or movie, I can't help but think, "Man, Dad would have loved this." It still breaks my heart after all of these years.

[elephantinegrace]

-hug-

I know what you're talking about. I met one of my closest friends because we simultaneously smiled when the song "The Scientist" came on the radio, and it became my favorite song until he died in a car accident and I couldn't listen to the song without crying anymore. At least it's a sad song, so crying is a bit more acceptable than if it were, say, "Time Warp."

[inkdust]

I think that's the farthest thing from shallow, OP. The things that you and your mom actively shared together /should/ remind you more of her than seeing other people out together. Those are the things that brought you closer.

[(Anonymous)]

Oh honey, there's nothing wrong with shows reminding you of your relationship with your mother and making you sad. What makes us grieve can be anything in the world. As much as it must suck, maybe one day it will remind you more of the good times you had, than of the things you've lost. I certainly hope it will. All the virtual *hugs* if you want 'em.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry, OP. I have a somewhat similar experience with this in that my mom loved science-fiction, particularly robots. Whatnot with the recent flourish of sci-fi, it makes me sad my mother (who passed away in October 2005) never got to see it.

[sootyowl]

Your mom sounds like she was an awesome woman. I'm sorry for your loss, OP.

[transcriptanon]

[Picture are and image of Sherlock Holmes and Joan Watson from the TV show "Elementary" and an image of Will Graham and Hannibal Lecter from the TV show "Hannibal". Joan Watson is a woman with long dark hair and lightly-tanned pale skin. She is wearing a light long-sleeved shirt with a dark sweater over it. She is standing behind Sherlock, who is sitting on an arm-chair and has very short dark hair, a slight beard and mustache, lightly tanned pale skin and is wearing a dark coat, dark pants and a red and black scarf. Will Graham has short curly dark hair, pale skin, blue eyes and a very slight beard and mustache. He is wearing a red, white and blue tartan shirt with a gray suit coat over it. Hannibal is standing behind him. He has pale skin, short dark hair combed back and is wearing a bright blue shirt, a tie with a paisley design over it and a dark blue suit coat.]

I watch these shows and love them, but they also bring me a lot of pain. My mom passed away almost two years ago, and I know she would have loved them, too, and sometimes I get choked up in the middle of an episode thinking about what my mom would have to say about a scene or an actor. The strange thign is that these feelings of missing her are strongest when I watch TV, much stronger than when I see a mother and daughter out at a restaurant or shopping together or other moments like you'd expect. I'm afraid this is shallow and "crazy fangirl" of me.

My mom was great about letting me gush about my favorite shows and watching them with me. I moved in with her when she was first diagnosed with cancer in 2005/2006, and she watched the second and third seasons of Supernatural with me and let me read meta blog posts to her while she was getting chemo and when she was too tired to get out of bed. (By the way, she was a Dean girl and remembered Jensen Ackles when he was on Days of Our Lives -which she watched for about 30 years-).

So I watch Elementary and Hannibal and imagine the conversations I would have with her about how awesome Joan is or what kind of restorative (and vegetarian) stew we would feed to Will.

And then I cry.

[nightscale]

It's not shallow of you at all OP, those TV shows are things that you and your mum shared and enjoyed together, it makes perfect sense to me that you would feel sad doing something that reminds you the most of her.

+1

[elaminator]

I don't know what to add to this, but it isn't weird and it sounds perfectly normal to me. I'm sorry for your loss.

[(Anonymous)]

It isn't shallow or "crazy" in the slightest. My dad died 3 years ago and every time I see trailers for an action or scifi movie I also think about how much he would have loved them. Just a few days ago when I heard about the new Grand Theft Auto game coming out I cried a bit. He loved that series.

[meredith44]

Just echoing the others and saying that I think of my father most (he died in 2001) when I watch something (like Forever Knight) that we used to watch together or when I watch something that he would have loved (like Warehouse 13).

[(Anonymous)]

Aww, anon, it's not crazy or silly at all. It's perfectly okay. *hugs*

[al28894]

I'm sorry for your loss, OP. I couldn't even imagine losing my mom or oldest sister who I can talk to about fandom. *hugs you*

OP Here

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks, everyone, for your kind words. I'm really sorry so many you have also experienced the loss of a parent or loved one, but I do feel better knowing that I'm not alone.

I have to go to bed early tonight so I don't have time to respond to each of you, but hopefully some of you will see this. *hugs everyone*

[khronos_keeper]

Oh noooo I think I know who you are. :(

Can I just... *awkward, comforting hugs*

It is hard, and I'm sorry. While I've not lost someone so close to me, I can understand a fraction of what you feel. My twin sister has moved out and away, and I can never hang out with her and share stuff, so I'm grieving over not having my best friend anymore.

<3 I hope it becomes less painful.

[(Anonymous)]

this is a lovely secret, anon. It seriously made me mist up a little.

*hugs*

[blunderbuss]

Are you a doppleganger of me, anon? My mum got cancer in 2006 too, and she passed away last year. TV was something she liked to watch when she was sick, and even though we didn't like the same shows, it makes me sad that I don't get to show her ones I think she'd like, like Elementary.

Hell, I tear up everytime I see Midsomer Murders or Miss Marple on, because those were her favorite shows. Now THAT'S dorky.

[light_shade]

That's really sad, OP, but really sweet at the same time. After reading all these responses about doing stuff with parents, I think I'm gonna go hug both of mine tonight. As much as I find the reality shows my mom likes to watch annoying, it's something I love to do together with her.

[tree_and_leaf]

That's not shallow, OP, quite the opposite. It's great that you and your mum shared that, and I can see how you'd really miss it and how the shows would become painful reminders of her loss. I hope that as time passes, the pain will get less acute, and you'll be able to take pleasure in your memories of that time with her.

[helenadax]

So sorry :( Hugs!