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⌈ Secret Post #2406 ⌋

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[Picture is a red apple.]

I wrote a really popular story. It still gets a lot of hits and comments, even though it wrapped up over a year ago. I promised a sequel. I want to write it, but I'm terrified of the readers. The fandom has gotten so much meaner and it seems like everyone considers this ship sunk. I hate that I haven't written it yet but I'm more worried now I never will. I'm really sorry, readers.

[Picture is the cast of the upcoming movie "X-Men: Days of the Future Past": Ian McKellen, Patrick Stewart, Hugh Jackman, James McAvoy, Michael Fassbender, Jennifer Lawrence and Nicholas Hoult. Patrick Stewart and Michael Fassbender were circled by the OP.]

The fact that he [Michael Fassbender] had the nerve to share a stage with him [Patrick Stewart] makes me angry.

[Picture is Nono or Nowi from the videogame "Fire Emblem: Awakening". She is a Manakete or Mamkute, a dragon shapeshifter. She looks like a child or childish looking teenager with pale skin, long pale green hair tied in a high ponytail. She is wearing a bluish purple cape, a short purple vest with a pink bow that bares most of her abdomen, purple gloves, very short purple shorts, and mid-thigh high purple boots. She is wearing a huge pink bow on her lower back. She is jumping in joy, with one arm behind her head and the other outstretched to the air, and both legs curled up.]

I wish more Western games had cute character designs.

[Picture is text and the partial logotypes of the TV shows "Supernatural", "Doctor Who" and "Sherlock", and the full logotype of the TV show "Elementary".]

While I am a fan of Superwholock, I would take Sherlock out and put Elementary there instead. There would be so much more to work with! You can probably guess why this is a secret...

Post Script: Sorry about the ugly secret!

[Picture is a photograph of wooden pencils under a few graphical editing filters.]

My journey from fandom back to original writing... important but still bloody painful. I'd probably never have made it if it didn't hurt so much. It still does sometimes.

[Picture is the actors David Burtka and Neil Patrick Harris walking somewhere outdoors with their children. David Burtka has tanned light skin and wavy short dark hair. He is wearing a gray top and black shorts. Neil Patrick Harris has rosy pale skin and short blond hair. He is wearing dark sunglasses, an open short-sleeved white shirt and blue tartan shorts. They are carrying a toddler each in one arm. The toddlers are both pale skinned and blond. One of them is wearing a horizontal blue and white striped T-shirt and khaki pants rolled up to the knees, and the other toddler is wearing a T-shirt.]

I used to love him so much but I think he turned into such a douche the moment he had kids. Now, I'm ashamed to even admit I ever liked him.

[Picture is Spock and James Kirk from the TV show "Star Trek". Spock has light olive skin, pointy ears and tidy, neatly cut short black hair. He is wearing a blue uniform. James Kirk has lightly tanned olive skin, short brown hair combed neatly and is wearing a greenish yellow uniform. Spock looks thoughtful, while Kirk smiles at him.]

I am sure everyone who ships them has never had a close friend of the same gender.

[Picture is a very stylized red letter "B", with the red word "BETA" beneath it.]

Right now, I'm beta-ing an A/B fic that's really bad. Not only is the grammar and the spelling horrid, but the characters are so fanon it hurts. Character A is made to be a woobie wearing leather pants. (Literally.) Character D who sometimes opposes them in canon is made to be a total, Out of Character villain. And Character B is randomly obsessed with Character A and develops a whole new personality for absolutely no reason.

And it's around twenty thousand words. I wish I could send it back to her, but apparently the author never has any luck with a regular beta -- she always hangs around my fandom's beta forums. And that kind of makes me feel guilty.

[Picture is a black and white photograph of the musical group "One Direction". They're all male teenagers around the same height with light skin and short dark hair carefully styled to look youthfully wild, all wearing pants/trousers, T-shirts, polo shirts or shirts and jackets or blazers. They are all standing in front of a brick wall.]

I don't ship it. I like a couple songs. I *love* the cuddles. I am an adult. I never found teens particularly attractive even when I was one.

Edited 2013-08-04 23:29 (UTC)

[Picture is Phoebus from the animated Disney film "The Hunchback of Notre Dame", Mr. Fischoeder from the cartoon "Bob's Burgers" and Tulio from the animated Dreamworks film "The Road to El Dorado". Phoebus is a blond man with short hair reaching his chin, a slight beard and tanned skin. Mr. Fischoeder is a man with triangular looking gray hair, wearing an eye-patch and with lightly tanned skin and wearing a labcoat over a white T-shirt and a purple tie. Tulio is a thin man with long black hair pulled back in a low ponytail, a goatee, lightly tanned olive skin and wearing a brown vest over a blue shirt.]

For the longest time, I could not accept that the same actor played Phoebus and Mr. Fischoeder. It just seemed to bizarre. I think I vaguely decided that they were two different voice actors with the same name -- there are a bunch of Kevin Klines out there, right?

Then I realized he also played Tulio and suddenly: IT ALL MADE SENSE.

[Picture is Phil Coulson from the Marvel movies and Sherlock Holmes from the TV show "Sherlock". Coulson has has light tanned skin and very short dark hair. He is wearing an ear piece and looking kind of worried but confident and dramatic as meteorites fall behind him. Sherlock has short curly dark hair, light gray eyes and light skin. He looks surprised.]

I wrote a crossover, set post-Reichenbach, pre-Thor. Then, I learned that everyone hates crossovers, and is sick of these fandoms. I'm afraid to post it.

[Picture is... okay I'm sure it's some sort of symbol but it kinda looks like a cursive letter "V" that got drunk and spiraled out of control when it tried to join the next letter and then vomited a dot somewhere along the way, and I tried drawing it on GIMP and then reverse-searching that through Google but I got nothing.]

I really feel like the most awful person for this. Hence, the secret. I swear to god I have nothing against trans* people. I even went through a phase of mild gender dysphoria myself from my teenaged years to young adulthood, settling now into a genderfluid identity with a usually femme presentation. So I can't say "ZOh My God I totally know the feeling!", but I'm not foreign to the concept.

But trans*headcanons in fandom make me terribly uncomfortable. I backbutton the fuck out of them. I don't know why! I like fics when characters play with gender, but when characters go full-blown Male To Female or Female To Male I stop reading. I suspect it's because I mostly read porn, and trans* sex scenes... somehow are a "no" to me. I used to rationalize it thinking it was because those fics were almost always written by cis people who would only fetishize trans* bodies, but now it has gotten to a point in which actual trans* people on tumblr I follow post their headcanons and I get /so much second hand embarrassment/. I know the problem is mine but I still they're... well, really pushy. It's like every character under the sun is trans* for them, and I want to yell "NOT EVERYBODY IS GENDER-VARIANT, GODDAMMIT". It's worse when it's a character I love. What the fuck is wrong with me?

I fail at fandom and at queerness. And now I wonder if I'm mildly transphobic, and I hate the idea, and myself.

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Secret 12 (warning for negative talk about transgenderism/transsexuality)