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fandomsecrets2013-08-09 07:11 pm
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[ SECRET POST #2411 ]
⌈ Secret Post #2411 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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[Supernatural/Jensen Ackles]
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[Mathias Lillmåns of Finntroll; Jonne Järvelä of Korpiklaani; Heri Joensen of Týr]
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[Welcome to Night Vale]
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[The Sweeney]
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[Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger, RP]
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[Bioshock Infinite: Burial at Sea]
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[NCIS]
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[Chris Hardwick and Janet Varney]
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[ ----- SPOILERY SECRETS AHEAD ----- ]
21. [SPOILERS for Transformers Prime]
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22. [SPOILERS for Harry Potter]
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23. [SPOILERS for Strawberry Night, Strawberry Night: Invisible Rain]
[WARNING for rape]
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24. [WARNING for depression, abuse, suicide]
[Harry Potter]
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Notes:
Sorry about that, miscounted during the week and it was a bit longer than usual.
Secrets Left to Post: 00 pages, 000 secrets from Secret Submission Post #344.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
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[Harry Potter]
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(Anonymous) 2013-08-09 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)*hugs*
I wish you all the best in the world and hope you get better and get better soon!
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(Anonymous) 2013-08-09 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)no subject
(Anonymous) 2013-08-10 12:36 am (UTC)(link)warning for depression, abuse, suicide
[Picture is Hermione Granger from Harry Potter movies.]
I'm diagnosed with "BDP" and major depressive disorder. Before this I was in a two year relationship that ended in January with a guy I was madly in love with. We talked kids, marriage and I was willing to move to Canada for him. After suicide attempts and constantly trying to call him I broke down and told my mother everything that really went on behind the relationship... the pushing for nudes, the guilting for stripping, the emotional manipulation for sex, the body shaming, etc. (short version anyways) after that until now I've still been obsessed with calling him seeking answers, wanting to love him, seeking approval and more. I started cutting myself and attempted suicide three more times this past year and a hospitalization (mental health center). My ex told everyone I was crazy, a stalker, etc. I was breaking down and was going down a dark depressive path. I felt there was no way out. He even threatened restraining orders on me for the calling.
Then, finally I thought... What would HERMIONE say to me? Or THINK of me?
She'd probably give me a good smack and tell me to stop being so ridiculous and pathetic for a dumb asshole. And that I'm better than that!
I need to be a strong woman like Hermione is. Thanks, Hermione.
Context: I noted I have "BPD" because of the abandonment issues.
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(Anonymous) 2013-08-11 08:15 am (UTC)(link)no subject
(Anonymous) 2013-08-12 02:04 am (UTC)(link)But I'm catching up after vacation.
BPD doesn't always involve cutting, but many cases do have it, even if the intent isn't suicide. I was diagnosed as a young teenager, which is why I'm surprised to hear the Anon was diagnosed so much later in life after a result from a breakup (regardless of how abusive the boyfriend was). In my experience, BPD typically comes from earlier trauma.
I'm also wondering how much of the Anon's story is true and what is exaggeration. One of the out patient programs I went to focused on how to interact with people without being manipulative and parts of this secret read like what I would say to get what I want.
Glad Anon found an outlet, but if they really do have BPD, they're going to need a more stable one soon, because I've seen and experienced how it can blow right back up and it is not pretty.
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(Anonymous) 2013-08-14 06:21 am (UTC)(link)