[ SECRET POST #2421 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2421 ⌋

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Comments

I try to avoid armchair psychology..."try" being the key word here

[nyxelestia]

Obviously, no one here needs to tell you that you have a problem - you can already recognize that you have one. And you probably have a good idea of what you would need to do in order to help yourself with that problem, and even if not, many others on here have made excellent suggestions, which I hope can help you in one capacity or another.

All I will say, OP, is that I sincerely wish and hope that you break free of this addiction, and that I firmly believe you can. You have at least one person in real life who can help you, if not more in the form of old friends who want to get back in touch with you, new friends you can make by branching out, and any family that might still care for you (and whoever it is you are living with that allows you to not have a job or degree and still have an Internet connection). And believe it or not, if you tell people online that as much as you love them, fandom is harming you/your livelihood and you need to break away, many of them can help out, too.

There are people around you who can help you, both online and offline (and maybe even both). Reach out to them, and reach into yourself for whatever it takes - motivation, discipline, well-channeled anger, desire for happiness, anything - to get past this problem you have.

I don't want to use some absolutism like "you can do it!" because I don't know you or your situation and I tend to take those types of broad-brush statements as condescending as hell, so I won't say it. What I will say is that there are many, many people who have been in your situation or even worse that have gotten past it. Google "Internet addiction rehab" and you'll realize just how many people have your same exact problem - maybe you'll find some people, groups, sites, and other resources amongst the search results that can help you. :)