fandomsecrets | [ SECRET POST #2432 ]

⌈ Secret Post #2432 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

01.

[Leverage]

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02.

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03.

[Dragon Ball Z]

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04.

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05.

[John Cusack, Say Anything]

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06.

[Arrested Development]

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07.

[Star Wars]

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08.

[Easy A]

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09.

[Star Trek]

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10. http://i.imgur.com/XrNzg6P.jpg
[link for porny art, illustrated]

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11. [SPOILERS for Twin Peaks]

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12. [SPOILERS for dangan ronpa, fire emblem awakening, pokemon special, and gatchaman crowds]

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13. [SPOILERS for Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan]

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[ ----- TRIGGERY SECRETS AHEAD ----- ]

14. [WARNING for abuse/incest/non-con]

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Saw this late. Sorry.

I do deserve it, but not for the reasons you gave.

It's more complicated than the rp'd smut. I just didn't want to make a wall of text about my relationship, and this is Fandom Secrets. But she's not just my rp partner - she used to also be my lover, and I'm saying "used to" just because we've always been in a kinda on-and-off relationship (at her whim), and we're currently in "off mode". Knowing her, she'll probably want me again in a couple of weeks, and it'll last another couple of weeks in which we're happy and she treats me with tenderness before I piss her off by existing, and the cycle will go on. Because yeah, it's true: I'm weak, I want her back too.

In Homestuck jargon, I'd say we flip black and red like crazy. Romantic hate can be a very addictive, damaging poison. There's passion and the adrenaline of the most awful fighting, yet you know the other person won't ever abandon you like everyone else has done. (God, don't I know about people abandoning me...) But I don't mistake this as something healthy, nor think it's something to strive for. The relationship has been an abusive one for years, and I'm not the one doing the abuse. Sometimes I sober up, realize this is destroying me, and make stupid secrets to vent.

But I end up going back. I always go back to her despite knowing better.

See why I say I deserve it?

[ SECRET POST #2432 ]

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