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fandomsecrets2013-09-17 06:40 pm
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Re: I feel bullied in my home
(Anonymous) 2013-09-18 12:46 am (UTC)(link)The demands that your parents are making are completely reasonable, but I have no idea /how/ they're talking to you which could make the difference between reasonable and hurtful or cruel.
The only advice I can give you right now is to keep trying and work out a solid plan to get out on your own. Keep applying to jobs, maybe look into how you can make money on the side (etsy, drawing, cooking, anything you can do yourself and offer for sale/services) and save up until you can afford your medication on yoru own and can move out.
OP
(Anonymous) 2013-09-18 01:08 am (UTC)(link)Yes. Two years ago I thought of mental hospitals as limiting and hellish. Now I think of them as a breath of fresh air. I have been diagnosed with mild autism, and also severe OCD. In the past my OCD has driven me to do things like force myself to throw up for having a 'sinful' thought. When I was nine years old I went through anxiety hell.
Yeah , they think that they HAVE to threaten me with taking away my internet or my entire computer (a few years ago they took my computer and locked it away for no reason other than, "you're too obsessed" They did the same thing with a movie book series I liked when I was ten / eleven.
My dad has told me he wants me to search as if I "won't eat tonight". But then I shouldn't take it personally when I get turned down. I was applying like a madwoman during the first two months here. I was actually trying for two jobs. But then I realized what hell it was just to get one.
I do have one. When I can get money I'll save it up enough I have plans to get a place a ways away near a friend of mine.
I have looked for commissions on the side. But I feel pretty invisible right now. Maybe I could look into Etsy...I was making earrings at one point in time with my sister. I think I'll try that.
I guess the internet is a bad place to vent. I'm jeez I can't even vent about being burnt out and having actual mental illnesses ignored without being jeered at.
Makes me start to think some people have a point about the world being a shithole sometimes. Again, thank you for listening.
Sorry to waste your time.
Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2013-09-18 01:15 am (UTC)(link)I have no idea where you live, but is there anything like a local noticeboard where you could pin adverts for your services? I know some people do things like cooking loaves of bread or sweets for families that like homemade but don't have the time. Or you get the idea, it won't bring in a lot of income but every little bit helps, right?
I'm sorry you didn't get the support you were needing with this thread, and you are definitely not a waste of time or a bother. Hang in there.
Re: OP
"Two years ago I thought of mental hospitals as limiting and hellish. Now I think of them as a breath of fresh air."
i just want to reiterate how important it is to research facilities because both of your ideas of them are simultaneously correct, and your experience will depend on the quality and type of facility you go into. like i said, my experience was one of the worst in my life for a number of reasons. if you're serious about going someplace, definitely look into your options, make sure you know your rights, etc. granted my stay was, again, involuntary, but yeah definitely look further into this. i can go into detail about my own stay if it helps drive this point home lmao. it makes a HUGE difference towards your wellbeing though.
also try to ignore anybody who is being too harsh; it's good to be able to vent, even when you aren't looking for advice or feedback, but places like this are not necessarily safe.
Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2013-09-18 02:01 am (UTC)(link)Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2013-09-18 02:15 am (UTC)(link)Then we moved.