[ SECRET POST #2466 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2466 ⌋

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Late day at work, sorry.

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Comments

Is this cathartic or sexual?

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah so this is an uncomfortable question, but one that I really feel I need help on.

I've been reading a fic where a character is experiencing a serious physical problem that I also have. We both had seizures, and reading about him behaving in the compromised, post ictal state to a seizure give me a really visceral sense of understanding and satisfaction.

I don't feel like it's hot or sexy, but it's provoking a truly physical reaction of maybe sympathy or pleasure. Sympathetic pleasure? I mean, the post ictal state is not a pleasant experience, but seeing how it must have looked to see me in that state is kind of... weird/interesting/satisfying?

I don't feel like I wanna bang his brains out, just I feel very very connected to him through that experience, more than identifying with him on an intellectual level.

I really have no fucking clue why I'm having this reaction. Can anyone give me some insight?

Re: Is this cathartic or sexual?

[(Anonymous)]

...Because seeing something that you've experienced but rarely every see talked about/acknowledged [particularly in media] can really hit you?

At least, that's why I felt that way when I saw my mental illness portrayed as not the worst thing in the world/magical power - but almost exactly how I experienced it.

Re: Is this cathartic or sexual?

[dimestoresaint]

+1

I had a similar reaction to a commercial for a new reality show where one of the cast members has fibromyalgia. It's not something that I've ever seen portrayed in media outside Lyrica commercials, which all feature middle-aged women; the person on the reality show looked young, like me.

Re: Is this cathartic or sexual?

[(Anonymous)]

Well, I don't know, but it sure sounds like catharsis

also, the word 'recognition' should probably be said

Re: Is this cathartic or sexual?

[littlestbirds]

Yeah I think I know what you mean. I had this experience with an RPF fic and I stopped reading in the fandom because my strong emotional attachment to someone I didn't even know was freaking me out. I didn't think it was that weird- the author just did a really amazing job.

ETA: And it wasn't sexual at all, as you describe. The fic had sex and I was totally bored by it.