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Don't get me wrong, guys, you know I love you all <333 And I love the English language. I owe it so fucking much it's actually a tie between cool and scary.

But how I wish I had people to fangirl with in Spanish.

I only have my RP partner and things have been really rocky between us lately. She's not interested on anything I write, either, unless is fanfic based on the characters we RP. The thing is, I have lots of fandoms I'd like to write about... but (yeah, this sounds pathetic, I know) what's the point if nobody will read it? I know a writer should just write for the sake of writing, but come on, we all know we writers want to tell our stories to other people. If that weren't the case, we wouldn't bother to put it in paper/type it out.

Case in point - I posted a really well researched and nicely layered (and if you pardon me the lack of humility: it was FUCKING AWESOME too) Latin Hetalia fic related to the 1973's September 11th Coup-de-état in Chile I had been trying to write since the birth of that fandom on 2009 and... well, it's just sad. I mailed it to one of my friends and she told me she liked it, but that was all. I hadn't written it before precisely because the complexity of the issue, and because I felt I lacked the maturity to deal with it and not make it a pamphlet or something. It's right there on AO3 and I can see people have clicked on it but... no kudos, either. I know it's silly but that hurt. :(

And I've tried to start RP comms in Spanish, but they always tank. People post once or twice and then disappear. There's one existing Spanish RP that works like a well oiled machine... but I won't go near it again. I'm kind of a persona non grata there, and I had heavy reasons to leave the fuck out. A pity that in the process I lost all my fandom friends. I guess they didn't care enough either.

I just... I'm not good enough at writing in English, y'know? And sometimes, you just want to geek out in your mother language and there's nobody to do so.

Sorry for the rant, guys.

Um, I know there's quite a few people who speak Spanish on tumblr. Mostly because every-so-often one of them randomly reblogs something from me so I go to check their tumblr and realize I have no idea what they're saying. So you might be able to find a small community there.

And if I may say, you sound like you have a good enough grasp of the English language to write fic in it.

But I'm sorry that you can't find anyone to talk to in your first language. That really sucks. I hope you find more people soon.

There are, and I know some! On Tumblr. And you know, maybe it's because I'm too fucking old already, but I don't like the format of making conversation on Tumblr, if that's even possible at all. And even them, well, they prefer to post in English anyway because that earns them more followers.

Thank you so much, sweetheart <3 I have, indeed, written fanfiction in English before, and got good feedback and nice concrit (with the corresponding share of the applause going to the amazing Beta I had those years ago :3); but the thing is... I don't enjoy it as much. Half of the time the fic looks like a Spanglish mess before I clean it up, and my turns of phrase and sentences look weird if I write in Spanish first and then translate.

Thank you for your good wishes <3 As I said, this is a great comm and I love all the people here, including you. A pity the attempt at a Spanish-language F!S became so full of drama and backstabbing (and overriden with the people from my former RP) it died quickly.

Nono, tumblr is not a great place to chat. I mean, I do it anyway because I am a chatty little fuck but it's not really made for discussions like dreamwidth is. And I'm sorry to hear that about the people you follow. I understand why they do it but it sucks for you.

Ah, I'm sorry then. I wish there was a simple and easy solution for you.

Oh, I know you do. I like talking with you too but I understand the yearning for something in the language you are most familiar with. I did not know that about the Spanish F!S. That's unfortunate. I'm sorry.

Edited 2013-10-07 01:06 (UTC)

How does one even chat in Tumblr :( Maybe I just don't get how to use it correctly... And I'm to used to LJ and analogue platforms, for example I can't RP in forums either and ALL THE DAMN RP IS DONE EITHER IN FORUMS OR IN TUMBLR aaaaargh DX Continuity, how do you do it.

It's ok. I can bet good money I'll end up caving in and at least translating some of my works. I feel too lonely :(

A pity, but it wasn't fated to last either way. Spanish fen was just too small to anything be "a secret", just imagine, the post went up on Saturdays and still there was like, ten-fifteen secrets? At most.

Mm, you can do it though asks, reblogging back and forth, or the little talk bubble at the end of some posts. I do all three because, again, I'm really chatty. Even a bad system won't slow me down.

Hmmm, best of luck.

Ah, I'm sorry. Maybe you could find websites dedicated to your fandoms in Spanish? Google and all that.

I'd offer to fangirl with you, but I'm really just learning spanish so idk how well that'd work, sorry.

Well, if you need someone to practice with, I'm always available! :DDDD 90% of what I know of the English language, it's thanks to the Internet, and interacting with other people in English. At first I was really afraid and nervous to make mistakes, but seriously, it's an awesome way to learn. (The downside being that listening/speaking skills take the backseat to writing/reading; and that my English is a weird mix of USian and British with some creative curse words from... everywhere, I think.)

Are you sure? 'Cause that would be really awesome! :D

I'm actually not too worried since where I live is actually right on the border with Mexico and it's about 50-50 with who speaks english or spanish with the majority actually speaking varying amounts of both languages. It's just a lot harder to find someone to practice writing/the grammar with, you know?

If it's alright with you, I'll shoot you a pm.

I assure you: I'm REALLY sure 8DDD

So you've got the speaking/listening part covered! That's awesome, and gives you a lot of advantage. Feel free to PM away <3 I love making new friends. My DW has some cobwebs here and there, but I'm sure I can do some effort and make it live again :3

You're welcome to PM me too if you want? I majored in Spanish in college (which was a long time ago) and my Spanish is terribly rusty but I can do my best. (Unfortunately I don't know Hetalia though.)

I can also relate to the difficulties of writing fic in another language. I've been trying to write some fic in German because it's RPS for a German rock band, and it's really difficult since my German is so poor. I sent one to my friend to beta and apparently I said some unintentionally hilarious things.

Then I thought maybe I should write some Attack on Titan fic in German, and it hit me that I'd better stick to English in other fandoms...

Oh, dear, I'm really late to this! But I'd love to make conversation with you in Spanish if you're up for it. Mind if I subscribe to you?

Keep on rocking that German, I'm sure you'll be awesome at it, specially if you have a Beta to help you out at first. It's difficult to write in another language, but so very worth it!

*Hugs!~*

Sure, you can subscribe to me! (Warning: I have been making a lot of personal posts especially lately which you can feel free to not read if you don't feel like it. I never got around to making a second journal for fandom only.)

Done! :D And don't worry about your journal not being fandom-only, mine isn't either. Thank you! <3

Es una lástima que no hable español con fluidez, pero siempre busco oportunidades para practicar si quieres hablar conmigo un poco. :)

Chica, te aseguro que al menos lo que he visto de tí en español, lo haces super bien. Practica conmigo todo lo que quieras, te aseguro que me harías muy feliz :3

Gracias :D estoy en mi final semestre de español - tengo otro semestre de universidad per no tendré español el semestre que viene. Después no sé si vaya a poder hablar, a menos que regrese a Costa Rica que es una posibilidad. (Pienso en enseñar inglés y aprender más español) :)

¿De qué quieres hablar de fandom?

Edited 2013-10-07 02:07 (UTC)

Ouch, soy terrible, había olvidado que había hablado de Costa Rica contigo! Tienes toda la razón. Sería fantástico que pudieras volver. Para variar, son el país de Centroamérica que mejor está llevando la recesión (aunque igual les ha tocado un poquito).

Sé que tenemos en común HS, así que quizá podríamos partir por ahí? Comentando las Upd8s. Lamentablemente mi único fic de HS en español es uno de Navidad con los Alpha Kids de antes que se revelara que Roxy y Dirk estaban en el futuro, así que es un poco AU |'D;;; No puedo ofrecer más de ese fandom de momento. No soy muy buena escribiendo de fandoms que son WIPs.

…necesito alcanzar a los upd8s. FAIL.

Hace unos años fue conversación de traducir todo de Homestuck al español. Quizá sea mejor esperar hasta al fin del Homestuck, pero si alguien empiece este proyecto quiero ser una parte. *u*

I just... I'm not good enough at writing in English, y'know?

This can't really help the language-loneliness situation, but I think you're too down on your English writing ability. You're one of the best post writers here. I know it's a completely different genre but you're good when it comes to nonfiction.

It might not live up to your own standards but I think you'd be better than most of the native writers writing fanfic in English if you ever wanted to switch it up.

Ahaha, thank you so much! <3 Seriously, you made me smile and I'm grateful for that.

I feel like I'm just far too rusty at my game, the last time I wrote something directly in English was for the SMT/Persona fandom at 2009. After that it has always been an English/Spanish slurry I clean up while editing, or writing directly in Spanish and then making a translation. And as I said to

forgottenjester I feel like my style doesn't translate well.

Maybe it IS true that I'm too hard on myself, though. I'm one of those self-sabotaging perfectionists :(

You know your own creative writing needs, but I do think you're being too hard on yourself. : D I hope you find more spanish-speaking geeks!

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