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⌈ Secret Post #2499 ⌋

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[Transformers]

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[Sherlock Holmes/C. Auguste Dupin]

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[Pacific Rim]

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[Obscurus Lupa Presents]

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[k-pop]

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[Ian McKellan and Patrick Stewart]

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[Neil Gaiman, Doctor Who]

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I feel like I'm losing hope. I'm still searching for a job, and interviews don't mean as much anymore, because I've had two and I still don't have a job. My parents are still impatient about me getting a job. My Dad made a comment about how I'd be out of the house if I didn't get a job by next year. I try applying for stuff but I know chances aren't good that I'll get a job. I don't know why I even bother.

I hate myself even more now. Sometimes I feel like the only reason I'm alive is that I'm afraid to die and I don't want to hurt people. I'm egotistical to think I have any fucking worth as a human being.

I'm sorry, anon. I'm sorry shit is so bad. I don't really know what to say, except you're not worthless or any fucking thing like that. You've been placed in a shitty, awful situation, and that isn't necessarily your own fault. The economy is awful. You're trying to get a job, you're looking, you're interviewing, shit is terrible. It's not your fault that shit is terrible. There is no reason for you to hate yourself, for fuck's sake.

The thing is there's nothing you can really do, practically, except keep moving and keep grinding (and just because you've already had two interviews, that doesn't mean that you can't get a job in the next one). Which is awful and shitty and I'm sorry I can't tell you anything better. But I think it can help sometimes to realize that your circumstances are something external and they don't necessarily reflect your worth. Worry about what's going to happen next later, and focus on what you can do, and if there's shit that you just can't affect because it's not your shit, just deal with it as best you can.

I'm sorry your situation is awful. But please realize that it's the situation, and that it doesn't make you worthless, that it's fucked up in a way external to you and it's not egotistical to think that you have worth.

God, I hate this economy and this situation and the way it makes so many people feel like this. It is infuriating.

Thank you.

I've calmed down a bit. It was just a nasty shock to find out I didn't get the last interview.

Though I still can't help feeling like I jinxed it by calling them. Every time I try to contact the people it always turns out badly, but my folks are always pushing me to do it and then giving the passive aggressive 'well I guess you just don't want a job" when I don't want to.

I've had an off and on problem with self esteem already and this isn't really helping. When I was growing up I was teased and some of my classmates made me feel like they thought I was too stupid to have feelings. I got the idea that hating on myself was different than hating on other people, which isn't really a healthy outlook I guess. I try not to do it...but sometimes I fall into self hating when I'm upset.

I guess the best thing I can do to deal with my negative emotions is write. That always cheers me up.

Have you had any luck finding places that are hiring on a temporary basis for the holidays, or for January inventory? It may be a good way to get your foot in the door: my supervisor, at my first job, had been taken on for inventory and that led to her being subsequently hired as a manager. (Management wasn't a good fit for her, but that's another story!)

IDK what to think about calling back: I don't think you can jinx it by calling back too often, but it might make you look like a nagging noodge--and yet if you don't call back at all, they might think you've lost interest. Probably you just have to hit a happy medium: ask them for a time frame when you might expect to hear back, then call them if you don't. And explain to your parents that you are worried about making a worse impression if you keep pestering them. It sounds like your folks think employers will hire you if you're just enough of a pest, which isn't realistic--but you can't just fold your hands in your lap and wait, either.

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