[ SECRET POST #2615 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2615 ⌋

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Comments

[lauramcewan]

This pretty much describes me. I am a busy mom of three. When I worked part-time, I had much more time to write, to be able to think about a story and put in the time to get it on paper. Three years ago, I went to full-time and I actually had to ask myself if it would be worth losing my creativity time and energy. (Given the debt we're STILL in, yes...I had to take the full-time work.) I did resent the lost time at first but now I'm far more resigned to it, happy when I have the energy and time in the evening to podfic or even just read. I have written a handful of stories since going to full time work, and all are like pulling teeth now. It's like I have to force it out instead of being able to have a drink, light a candle, and spend an entire afternoon playing in another world. Now it's two hours in an evening if I'm lucky and then I'm completely shot and must go to bed. Podfic has been my saving grace - I don't have to think up the story, I just read it, and I'm loving having found a new outlet. But it's not the same.

My kids are all teens now and handle more on their own...but I still feel like I put some part of me out on the curb with a "full-time worker, creativity free to good home" sign attached.

[sweetjamielee]

I resonate with this. About 2 years ago I had a baby, and about 5 months after that started my first (very intellectually and emotionally challenging) full-time job in my chosen professional career. While I am still interested in fandom/fic and hold onto shreds of that part of my life when I can, there is just next to no time and even less energy for it. Sometimes I'll have moments of "I could write right now, I guess," but plumbing the creative well sounds so hard and I usually just end up doing something more passive instead. I love my job and my kid and do not regret having those being the things that take up my mental and emotional space, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel bereft at the loss of my fandom self.