[ SECRET POST #2652 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2652 ⌋

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Re: Vent

[feotakahari]

I'm starting to think my tendency to take situations as normal is seriously unhealthy.

This was actually something that was first pointed out to me when I was really sick. I couldn't eat a bag of Doritos without hurting my insides pretty badly, and I blamed myself for it and told the doctor it was my fault for eating it. She told me I shouldn't HAVE to be so sick I couldn't eat what I wanted, and that idea seemed like a revelation to me--being sick was just the natural order of things before that.

Now I'm on immunosuppressants, and my body is very vulnerable. If my sleep schedule is disrupted for more than two days, I WILL get a cold. I stopped staying up late on weekends, because I was getting colds as often as two Mondays a month, and I took that as a natural part of being me.

Now I'm only a schedule where I have to get up at 6 in the morning, and I haven't adjusted well at all. I tried my best to fall asleep at the right time, but I couldn't, so I wound up sleeping weird hours and getting a cold. I instinctively berated myself for not being able to fall asleep at the right time, and then I thought "Seriously? I tried everything I could think of. Why is this my fault?" And then I realized how weird it was for someone my age to be so rigidly forced to sleep the same hours every day.

I'm gonna talk to my doctor soon. There has to be something I can do. I can't keep treating this as normal.