[ SECRET POST #2775 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2775 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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04. [SPOILERS for Saints Row 4]



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10. [WARNING for anxiety/depression]




















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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

not knowing the context, i'm guessing her "backstory" is that.. she has anxiety? and i assume your use of sarcastic quotes means you think she's faking it. you KNOW people have varying types and levels of anxiety and different ways of coping, right?

[sarillia]

I hate the policing of what counts as a real problem. I've been reduced to a paranoid shut-in and had to leave school several times because of mine and I still end up worrying that my problem isn't really bad enough to complain about.

[kallanda_lee]

Seconding this. Granted, I do not know this person, but you can't judge a person's mental state by highly filtered media like TV.

There were periods in my life where I managed to appear as a functioning human being, even socialize or go to parties - while the next day I might have been under a table curled up in a ball.

I sort of really side-eye people who claim that someone who performs can't have anxiety - yes they can, especially if their source of anxiety is not performing itself.

[(Anonymous)]

My depression manifests as emotional numbness and avoidance. I'm a man, so emotional numbness is actually rewarded socially, and avoidance just looks like procrastination until it goes on for an entire year.

[kallanda_lee]

I feel you so much on the avoidance/procrastination thing. Even now, that's one vicious cycle I can't always break. It's been an issue lately - it might not be the worst manifestation of my issues, but certainly the most frustrating one, as it seems relatively easy to fix but it isn't. And the problem is the one feeds on the other. The more I procrastinate, the more I feel I'm disappointing people, the more I'm anxious and likely to manifest avoidance behaviour, and then even more procrastination ensues.

[takaraikarin]

This sounds like my issue to a t, that I was a complete shut in once because of this. I'd sneak around my apartment complex to go grocery shopping when I remember I have to feed myself because I was so afraid of meeting people.

And I still feel guilty and thinking I should've been able to snap out of that 'funk' myself, that it was never a really big deal.

[kallanda_lee]

It never was that bad by the time I was an adult, fortunately, or I think I'd just not have fed myself. I'm really shit at what tumblr calls self-care, so there's that. My anxiety was originally based around academical failure, so it started in school but gradually seeped into other aspects of life.

But that's sort of the tricky part, it's still worst with things reminding me of school assignments, which includes reading, writing, and professional things.So it's really easy to slip into that again. I actually have this thing where my body even starts to shut down against my will, and putting me asleep

[(Anonymous)]

Oh my goodness, that last point x100. I have anxiety, and I am a stage actress. Apparently these things are mutually exclusive to most people. I think the fact that 1) everything is scripted and 2) I am in the mindset of my character actually assuages my anxiety rather than ramping it up.

[kallanda_lee]

Hey, just wanted to say it sounds pretty awesome to be a stage actress - I'm actually sort of jealous. Glad you characters actually manage to help you!

[elephantinegrace]

NAYRT, but I am a stage actress, and I've found it a lot less stressful since my character and I aren't directly interacting with any audience members, so even if there are more of them, bit doesn't matter. (At least, that's how I feel. YMMV)

[(Anonymous)]

Offtopic, but haven't seen you around much. Hoe you're dong okay. Good to see you.

[elephantinegrace]

Oh, haha, nice to know I've been missed!

I got married and I moved, so F!S has been pretty low on my list of priorities (not that you guys aren't important!) but I've just settled back into my life of wasting time on the internet, so I'll probably stick around.

[(Anonymous)]

Congrats on getting married! Glad to know you're doing okay! :3 Hope to see you around more!

[kallanda_lee]

Seconding the congrats!

[(Anonymous)]

Yes, a lot of this. Most of my anxiety is social anxiety, and I've done a fair bit of amateur stage and national debates and things like that. Because, again, most of it is scripted, so I don't have to make witty things up on the fly or pretend to be functional in face-to-face interaction, the fact that I'm being a character adds a layer of insulation against the paranoid terror that people are judging me, and also the audience in most cases is over there, too big to matter individually, and often in the dark compared to me so I don't have to look people in the eye (and can sometimes even pretend they're not there at all).

I have stood up to give speeches in front of hundreds of people, and it was infinitely easier than one face-to-face conversation with someone I was actually responsible to.

[(Anonymous)]

I loved being in school and camp plays when I was young. My parents always pointed to that when I got anxious about social interaction in other situations. "If you can get up and talk in front of a whole audience, there's no way it can be so hard for you to go up to one person and introduce yourself." Unfortunately, I had no idea what made the difference, let alone how to explain it.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm glad I'm no the only one. My mom would tell me to pretend/act when I was around other people, but it's different and I can't.

[(Anonymous)]

Same here. I pretty much fake all my confidence when I'm out in public, but I still get anxiety and will just exist to do what it is I have to do with little interaction. But if I had to do a presentation, then I'll get up there and do it. Often people have been surprised.

[recessional]

Thiiiis.

I have been performing onstage since I was 5. I don't get stage fright.

On the other hand I've jeopardized serious things in my life (my degree, my housing situation, my job, my, um, actual life) because of anxiety related to the phone and talking to people one on one.

[(Anonymous)]

My depression comes in 'I'm mildly concerned about issues and self confidence issues' and then it goes into 'black, crushing despair, rocking on the floor in tears and hating myself, my choices in life and not remembering what happy is' and while in public you can't see it, there are a few people that know the extent of it.

There are all sorts of flavors and it ebbs and flows. I've been battling this crap my entire life and it's just gotten to the nasty end again.

[(Anonymous)]

I don't know the context either, but I'm guessing it's some kind of reaction to producers of reality tv engineering "storylines" from participants' background/issues. And when those are laid on really thick, they can be quite annoying. So maybe every time this woman's on, OP's getting a big dose of "I OVERCAME MY ANXIETY TO BE HERE" type stuff? Which I can understand disliking, but I'm not sure it's offensive.

Personally, my least favorite are the folksy, small-town personae, all wide-eyed at "city life" (especially if it's something like Big Brother, where they're not even interacting with the city in question).

[(Anonymous)]

i know a person in real life who never shuts up about being a "country mouse" who's so amazed at "city life" (our city isn't even that big) so that's annoyingly realistic, sadly. like omg woman shut up you life on the outskirts of the city and work for a small company and don't go out much. please stop talking about how amazing "city life" is, lol

[sarillia]

My brother's girlfriend is always exaggerating about how her hometown is in the middle of nowhere. I've been there, it's about on par with where I live, but she never shuts up about all the things they don't have where she's from.

[(Anonymous)]

Not to mention that on a show like this, the people performing on it have nigh to no influence on what gets shown and how it gets cut and presented in the finished show in the end.