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⌈ Secret Post #2937 ⌋

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Comments

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[pantswarrior]

Annoying me the last couple days has been ... absolutely nothing being the slightest bit appetizing, food or drink. My GI problems mean I never get hungry (literally it has been YEARS since I felt the sensation of hunger, despite having gone more than a day without eating at times), but yesterday it was so bad that anything I even thought of putting in my mouth made my stomach nearly heave. It was late at night before peanut butter on dark chocolate actually sounded like something I could look at without gagging.

Today is a little better, in that I can think of food or drink and it sounds so appetizing that I wind up inhaling longingly... and then almost gagging as I exhale. :( But at least I can think about food and managed to eat a little of it.

Also, adding a guy on Facebook who I met at a con and whom I'd seen around in FB groups and stuff and he seemed cool... and then discovering once we were friended that he's a MRA. :(

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[kaijinscendre]

I am glad you are getting your appetite back! Or at least wanting to eat. You could always try Monkey Chow for all your nutritional needs!

http://youtu.be/4YYh_brHe4U

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[pantswarrior]

I'm always WANTING to eat - I need to gain at least 20, ideally more like 40 pounds. :/ Just I can't, due to severe nausea and when I'm not nauseated, reflux. (Not acid reflux either - my problem seems to be LOW stomach acid.) And I keep coming across all these amazing-sounding dessert recipes and interesting new varieties of cookies and candies and pastries and ice cream at the store...

I have a doctor's appointment for the first time in two years in about a week, at which I will hopefully be capable of voicing what the two years interim of research and experimentation has turned up, and maybe get some symptom relief, if perhaps not the extremely expensive antibiotics I'm probably going to need at least one course of before I can be better. If I ever actually do get better? I'm going to get fat, because I can cook and eat and sample all the things I've been wanting to try. And I'm going to be SO HAPPY about being fat.

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[kaijinscendre]

Oh! I am glad you got a doctor's appointment. Tell me how it goes?

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[pantswarrior]

Heh, thanks. I have a feeling it'll be either so frustrating or so much a relief that I'll want to rant and/or rave, so I'll try to remember to do so. ;)

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[(Anonymous)]

I'm the same with the complete lack of hunger sensation :(
I have phone alarms that tell me when to eat and I have to just get it over with and wash things down with water quickly before I feel like I have to spit it out.

The other day I was convinced I wanted hot chips, so I went out and got them and I couldn't even finish one chip. I ended up crying on the kitchen floor. So frustrating.

I was misdiagnosed with anorexia when I was 9 and admitted to a country hospital that didn't have anyone who specialised in eating disorders, so I was threatened with having a tube forced down my throat and watched constantly. It was pretty traumatic and I have trouble talking about anything food related with doctors now.

Hugs to you if you want them.

Re: Why do you do the thing?

[pantswarrior]

Ugh, same situation when I was a kid, except I *did* have the tubes forced down my throat and crap pumped into them until I was sick. And then they said I was doing it on purpose and called me bulemic.

I also have issues with doctors now, unsurprisingly. And still nightmares. Twenty years later, I'm still having nightmares.

And yes, the whole thing where food sounds SO GOOD and then you can't have more than like a bite? So, so frustrating. I have wound up crying at commercials for pizza and donuts and pancakes because they look/sound so amazingly delicious but I know it would be pointless and a waste of money to go out and get some, but I'm just so tired of living off spoonfuls of peanut butter and Nutella because I don't have to even chew, I can just swallow quickly and get it over with. (Drinking water makes me nauseated, always has... I found out recently it dilutes stomach acid, so if you have low stomach acid as I almost certainly do, you should never drink with meals. I drink vinegar or lemon juice sometimes with meals, but that's about it.)