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It's actually a long story, ha
The thing is that when I was little, no-one really called my by m first name. I had a nickname, and maybe until I was 8 or 9 I even signed stuff with that nickname.
As I got older people started calling me more b my "real" name which always sort of felt weird, and I downright rejected after m granddad died.The thing (without actually giving my name), my first name could be seen as a "christian" of biblical name or whatever. So I guess I had my first "crisis of faith".
After leaving elementary school, I started to hyphenate First Name-Middle name, and slowly shifted to just signing as First Initial-Middlename-Last name.
This was also around the times I started reading comics, and my 13-ear-old self wanted really liked all these Marvel names like "Peter Parker" or "Scott Summers", well you get the idea (damn ou Marvel Comics, you ruined my life lol). Since my middle and last names alliterate, I started dropping my first name altogether.I also had a of of problem at school...so when at 16 I went to high-school number 3, I introduced myself by my middle name and there's that.
At this point,I really feel weird when someone calls me b m first name - it's alien, like it isn't me. It's weird when I see it on m official mail, and not even my parents call me that anymore.
Hell, I don't even react to it, because chances of someone calling me that are so rare.
So yeah...
And, adding to that I changed a lot as a person, and also used the name change to leave some things behind me (I basically did a clean slate after I went to that third school at 16), m first name really isn't "me".
Re: It's actually a long story, ha
(Anonymous) 2015-01-25 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)I really do wish I could offer an insightful comment to your well thought out comment and I'm sorry for my lack of.
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(Anonymous) 2015-01-25 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)depending on the model, you should be able to get the keyboard tray replaced; think it's about a $75 repair, at least that's what I paid for an old netbook.
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(Anonymous) 2015-01-25 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)Re: It's actually a long story, ha
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I go by a nickname based off my middle name and have gone by it since I was four. Even though it's a traditionally masculine and non-professional nickname (think along the lines of Bobby/Tommy/Sammy/etc), I had no issues with it until college.
Suddenly I was in classes where the teacher didn't really care that much about me and would only have me as a student for a single semester, so I didn't correct them when they used my first name (which I hate). That led to certain departments knowing me by my first names and other departments (like my main major and band) knowing me by my nickname. Oh, and I didn't speak up a lot in choir like I did in band, so technically the music department was split down the middle, with the choir professors and students knowing me by my first name and the band professors and students knowing me by my nickname.
Then I started applying for jobs and it got even worse because I thought putting my nickname on my application would be both misleading because it wasn't my "real" name and gender confusing and unprofessional. So I put my real name down, thinking I'd bring it up to my coworkers if/when I got the job. Only I'd be so happy and overwhelmed to get it, that I never corrected anybody.
Spent my first entire job as my real name and hated it. More than anything I hated how it was started to stick, when it'd been so alien in the past. I vowed that I'd correct it with my next job... and promptly repeated the same version of events all over again.
Spent a year with my current job going by my real name, and then I had a "mid-life name crisis" as I tried to explain to people. It was during a wave when I was meeting and being introduced to a lot more people than normal, and then suddenly EVERYONE was calling me by my first name and I just imagined this long dark corridor where I suddenly wasn't [insert name] anymore.
So I pulled a 180 and was like, "NOPE. MY NAME IS [INSERT NAME]. YOU CAN CALL ME BY THE OTHER ONE, BUT BETWEEN THE TWO I PREFER THIS ONE."
I changed my name on my linkedin, my facebook, got our main server guy to give me a new email address, the works.
It's been such a stress relief since then. It feels great.
Re: It's actually a long story, ha
I do introduce myself as middlename-lastname so to everyone new. Technically I'm okay with either middle name or childhood nickname (but that's mostly for older relatives, and most are not alive anymore, and it is one of those things that sounds a bit child-like). So, middle name it is. It's confusing because my folks now have nicknames for me based on the middle name. There's also my original nickname on the internet (that my ex actually called me in real life). And I've had Kallanda as an online name for a while now.
So, all in all, that's about 9 names or so, not counting diminutive versions (which our languages allow).
I'm mostly personally responsible for the mess.
But my facebook, my articles, my fiction, all non-official correspondence is under my middle name.
I thought about officially changing it..;but, the name's got history, and I sort of like the history.