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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2015-08-01 03:51 pm

[ SECRET POST #3132 ]


⌈ Secret Post #3132 ⌋

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Re: Were you a bully?

(Anonymous) 2015-08-02 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I was. High school more than elementary school, but I've never really "played nice" with others...I grew up in a family where respect was a huge thing. Like, you had to earn respect, or you weren't worth shit, and I definitely acted that out on other kids around me. Kids that I didn't respect (which was, unfortunately, usually the already meek ones that wouldn't stand up for themselves), I treated like absolute dirt.

It didn't really help that I was pretty well-liked by the staff and the "popular" kids, even though I wasn't really on any sports or other teams, so it just reinforced the behavior.

Moving out of my house when I went to college and actually living around people that had normal families helped to snap me out of it, but I'm not really trying to defend myself. I was a total asshole. I've reached out to a few people since to apologize, but a couple of them understandably didn't want to hear it.

The worst part, I think, is that I still kind of struggle with it. There's an instinctive sort of disgust that pops up in me when I meet someone I don't respect right off the bat, but I've gotten a hell of a lot better at acknowledging that feeling for what it is, remembering where it comes from, and banishing it.