[ SECRET POST #3190 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3190 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Angry Birds (Movie)]


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03.
[The Great British Bake Off (series 6)]


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[Jennifer Nettles, Ronnie Dunn]


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[Free!]


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[Hannibal]


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[Jennifer Lien, who played Kes in Star Trek: Voyager]


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[BBC Robin Hood]


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(Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie/The Mirror Empire by Kameron Hurley)












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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Is this what OCD does to a person? Because I'm like that (spending too much time worrying about being good, feeling responsible for things I'm not responsible for, worrying far too much, struggling just to be at all normal). D:

[diet_poison]

I always thought it was more about obsessing over details and having little rituals without which you would feel like you were doing something wrong and/or something horrible would happen.

I mean, maybe it's a wider scope than that. I had a...state of being?...when I was a teen that I think may well have developed into full-blown OCD had I not recognized and actively combated it, but I've never actually had the disorder.

OP

[(Anonymous)]

In order to qualify for a diagnosis of OCD, you can have either obsessions (not necessarily focusing on details, as such -- just unwanted mental fixations, such as being terrified of carrying some horrible disease without knowing, for instance) or compulsions (the rituals you described) or both. I have both.

My OCD was definitely worse upon its onset when I was about eleven years old than it is now, but it fluctuates quite a lot -- which is not to scare you! Sometimes people do really just have a rough time of things in terms of mental health without its being tied to a particular disorder.

Re: OP

[diet_poison]

ah, thanks for the clarification, OP!

Re: OP

[riotgrrrl]

Isn't being scared of a horrible disease a disorder in itself, such as hypochondria or illness anxiety disorder? I'm only asking because I just last week had my introduction meeting with a therapist specifically for this kind of thing, and I always considered it to be the illness anxiety disorder that was bothering me (which is making me obsessed about that particular thing), but an 'unwanted mental fixation' definitely sounds right as well.

OP here [cw for brain problems]

[(Anonymous)]

Well, if it helps to describe my own experience a little more, I would be glad to, anon.

I have both OCD and GAD, and it is not always clear where one ends and the other begins... but one of my biggest and worst symptoms is fixating on (which is the phrase I wish I had used in the secret instead of "worrying about", actually) my perceived moral purity or lack thereof. If I even VERY SLIGHTLY wrong someone, or think I have wronged them, I spiral into "I am cruel, I am thoughtless, I am poison, I am wretched, I should be punished" very readily, and it can last for hours, if not days or even weeks, feeling diseased and rotten and afraid of myself. Unfortunately, I am also prone to intrusive thoughts that mainly revolve around either deliberately or accidentally harming innocent beings, and those two symptoms do not mix well.

Thankfully, I have just begun a new medication and will be going to therapy on a regular basis, so I am optimistic about getting some peace -- and if your worry rules your life, anon, then whether it springs from OCD or not, you deserve to have a peaceful life and brain too. Please do talk to your doctor if you can!

Re: OP here [cw for brain problems]

[diet_poison]

I'm happy for you that you're trying the new meds/therapy, and I really hope they work for you! <3