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Hey venting

[pinkherring]

Eh, don't read this if pet death really troubles you.
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Earlier this week, I found out that my sweet little kitten, who's been sick for months and wasting away despite pushing food on her constantly, had advanced cancer and I had to put her down. Poor girl. She had it so hard and she had so much spirit, she fought hard. So all I want to do now is eat my feelings. I've been on a diet for a year and I've stuck with it and lost a ton of weight but I'm so frustrated and pissed off and definitely feel entitled. I've had 2 pieces of strawberry shortcake, an enchilada, cottage cheese and a bag of popcorn and wine and if I stopped now and bicycled on my stationary bike, I could repair the damage in about 30 minutes but I'm thinking I'll just say fuck it and drink the rest of the wine from the fridge, a coffee with milk and vodka, eat an omelet, etc. I feel sad. I miss my baby cat. She was really sweet and I'm getting to the point where I convince myself that I didn't do enough for her. The vet said that it was the best thing for her and I spent her last day with her lying outside and she purred for the first time in weeks but what the hell. Who can say they've actually tried their level best for anything? I've probably had too much to drink at this point.

Re: Hey venting

[(Anonymous)]

Stop eating, you'll feel shittier if you keep eating past this point. Go on your bike, the exercise will make you feel a lot better.

You can't control whether a kitten had cancer or not. You couldn't have done anything to stop it and it doesn't sound like you were neglectful or didn't do enough to make her happy in her last days. There is also no single objective scale for "best." If she was happy, you did an A+ job and any doubts you have is just BS that's about YOU wanting to do something in order to not feel helpless, rather than about her comfort and happiness. It sounds like she was happy, so you did more than enough. Don't make yourself feel worse than you already do.

Re: Hey venting

[pinkherring]

Thanks. I think you're right. I'm in a mood and it's stupid to let myself wallow in it.

Re: Hey venting

[(Anonymous)]

It's a myth that you can repair the damage of bad eating habits by exercising it away. Think about it: your body is under enough stress of eating and drinking crap, so now you're going to push it with exercise. You might burn off something, but you'll probably feel more like crap. Stress + bad diet + cardio is a bad combo. Relax, get a massage, eat a fresh veggie, stop beating yourself up, hang out with friends, watch a movie, sleep and let your body recover. Then don't repeat the bingefest.

As for your kitten, all you can do is acknowledge you did what you could with the knowledge that you had. I'm sorry for your loss. But at least now you know to look for the signs of a pet with a serious illness. It's not your fault the cat got cancer, and while there may have been a better chance of her surviving with earlier intervention, that doesn't make it a guarantee. Listen to your vet. You did what you could. You gave her an awesome last day.

Re: Hey venting

[mrs_don_draper]

It's okay to indulge. You deserve it. If you don't want to bike, don't. I'm sorry for your loss. Try to take it easy on yourself. <333

Re: Hey venting

[(Anonymous)]

Poor kitty! But no one expects a young cat to develop cancer--it's something I'd worry about with my geriatric kitty, William, but with a kitten I would probably figure that she had issues with the taste and texture of the food, and keep trying to find something she liked.

Don't try to eat your feelings: it doesn't work all that well, and eventually leaves you feeling worse--but you knew that. Take a walk in the woods, have some wine (later), talk to a friend, maybe do some housework. Tomorrow have the coffee with milk, and think about giving a donation in kitty's memory to the local animal shelter, or even about volunteering there when you feel you can bear the sight of cats again.

I'm sorry this has happened to you and your cat.