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⌈ Secret Post #3349 ⌋

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Re: Confessions thread

[dahli]

Half-confessions, half-rants.

I keep things from my family because time and experience has taught me that they will be extremely critical and/or freak out about anything and everything I do.

Also I feel both guilty and glad I cut off some "friends" out of my life. I don't need more people dismissing my feelings and putting me down every time I'm proud of my accomplishments. I have my family and therapist doing that already, thank you very much.

And I ABSOLUTELY HATE when my family gets super controlling on the things I spend on/the time I sleep/who I talk to. Hell, even my mom had to really insist on picking a therapist for me and my brother insisting on knowing what I spend my money on. I can't even buy a pair of socks without them flipping their shit at me. And then they wonder why I'm not an independent adult. Yes. I wonder why. (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

Also back in highschool, when I wasn't sure about my sexuality (or lack of), I had to tell my friends that I had a crush on this guy. Truth be told is that I didn't but I felt so incredibly pressured to have a crush in highschool since that's what "normal" highschoolers do. I felt so bad for the guy when he found out about my "crush" on him and been wanting to clear things up and apologize about it.

Re: Confessions thread

[(Anonymous)]

That sucks.

There are certain things I don't mention or downplay to my family, because I know they'll ruin it. Big or small. Sometimes they'll ask why I never talk about things and then I have to stop myself from screaming.

I've also cut people out of my life, or taken some time away from them. I refuse to spend time with people who are just going to make me feel bad.

The worst thing about all of this is that they often mean well, so I can't be too hard on them. But I don't know, that may be true up to a certain point, but if I've explained these things and they don't even try to change...

But your situation seems way worse. Insisting on choosing your therapist? Wtf? How does that help in any way?

Re: Confessions thread

[dahli]

Same here. :/ I love the but no, some things I'd rather not share with them. Every time I confided to them, they blew me off or made a really big deal about it. I used to trust them but now they really have to prove themselves not to blow up before I confide to them again.

And yeaaah... Like four years ago I told my mom about how the therapist used to try hypnotism on me (this was in fourth grade) and told her it didn't work on me. Except this one time when it did work but mostly because I was really tired and ended up sleeping the whole hour. I remember stuff from it and my at-the-time therapist said I did reply to her like I normally did when I wasn't hypnotized. Anyway, my mom freaked out and when we where talking about me needing a therapist she insisted that we should get one that she knew didn't do hypnotism. Looking back on it, it's actually pretty funny and like you said, she means well. She just has a really big tendency on freaking out.

Anyway, I kinda gave up on doing anything ever unless they tell me to, and now I spend my life shitposting on the internet where I have actual freedom.

Re: Confessions thread

[(Anonymous)]

What the fucking fuck about the therapist? That's terrible. A bad therapist can set you back.

But what makes you think you can't be an independent adult?

Re: Confessions thread

[dahli]

I explained an anon up there about it but tl;dr my mom freaks out really easily.

And every time I tried doing something for myself/not for my family I ended up getting put down/yelled at/snarked at. Years and years of the same thing can wear you down emotionally, so I ended up not trying any more. Saves me the pain of having to search for a therapist.

Re: Confessions thread

[(Anonymous)]

No one should get yelled at or put down for trying to make independent decisions. That sounds abusive to me. Why can't you move out on your own?

Re: Confessions thread

[dahli]

Meh, too many reasons but mostly its money. Instead I'm trying to look for other ways to be independent without telling my family (and friends sometimes) about it.