[ SECRET POST #3375 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3375 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

01.
[Anna Russell]



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02.
[Versailles TV Series]


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03.
[Jurassic Park, Robert Muldoon]


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04.
[Iggy Pop]


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05.
(Person of Interest)


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06.
[Knight Rider, Michael/KITT]


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07.
[The Division]


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08.
[Song referenced in secret: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlCZ-DakfyE (Kaleo- "Way Down We Go")]


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09.
[One Punch Man, Saitama, Genos]


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10.
[Haikyuu]











Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 01 pages, 019 secrets from Secret Submission Post #482.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Re: I'm really getting worried about how angry I'm getting

[masu_trout]

Not to go all armchair psychologist, anon, but is it possible there might be some anxiety issues going on here? Your words remind me a whole lot of myself when my anxiety is at its worst, because it just becomes horrible and all-consuming, and it's like the very world itself is sandpaper on my skin and I just need some concrete thing to focus my frustration and on or else I'll explode.

Regardless of the actual cause, though, here's some things that might help:

-Try out strategies for dealing with intrusive thoughts. It's different for everyone, but a lot of times even just having some in mind can help deal with that building rage before it gets too huge. There's a lot of good resources or this sort of thing online.

-Try to find soothing activities, no matter how silly or simple they might seem; the easier to do, the better. Could be knitting, petting an animal, playing a video game, tending to a plant, even something completely odd like playing with a rubber band. If you feel yourself getting into rage mode, try to use them to calm you down.

-Don't beat yourself up for having these fantasies. Violent fantasies don't necessarily a violent person make, and the fact that you know that these thoughts wouldn't be okay to enact in real life indicates (to me, at least) that despite your fears you're not actually a danger to those around you. Everyone thinks about thinks that are unacceptable in real life, and oftentimes with this sort of thing your anger and fear at yourself for having these can feed the violent fantasies and actually make them worse.

-I don't necessarily recommend a weighted blanket, since they're expensive as heck and I don't actually have any clue whether they'd work for your situation, but a lot of the time literal physical pressure can be weirdly helpful for this sort of thing. There are DIY-type resources for this online that can help you figure out whether that might be something worth looking into.

-If at all possible, I encourage you to talk to a professional. I absolutely guarantee it won't be the weirdest thing they've heard (probably won't even be the weirdest thing they're heard that day, honestly) and they have all sorts of strategies to help people deal with intrusive anger. Whether there's an underlying condition that's leading to this anger or not, they can help you deal with it in a way that will make it less frightening and less all-consuming for you.

No matter what, anon, I hope you end up feeling okay! I'll be wishing the best for you.

Re: I'm really getting worried about how angry I'm getting

[kallanda_lee]

This, we all process anxiety differently, and I'm also someone who builds up anger, sadly. but I see anger as a warning sign.