[ SECRET POST #3546 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3546 ⌋

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tw: suicide

[(Anonymous)]

Don't eeeevvvveeeer do heroin, kids. I'm not kidding, that'll fuck your life right up, faster than you'll know what hit you.

The high itself is top-end, I won't lie. All the pain goes away-- physical, mental, emotional, all of it. You're just floating along feeling out of your head and body, like nothing could bring you back down to your problems again. Then you crash, and you feel like you're lower than shit. The aches and pains feel amplified, the self-loathing ratchets up to unbearable levels, all the problems in your life seem utterly insurmountable, and all that matters is getting to that high again.

That or dying. Those genuinely seem like your only options when you're stuck on heroin. Get high again or commit suicide. And I'm a fucking coward, so I always went with the "get high again" option. I lost a lot of friends and a lot of family through my actions (stealing/lying etc), which just made the need to escape worse. I'm honestly lucky I never ended up homeless; my landlady is pretty much the most saintly, understanding woman in the world and didn't kick my ass out even when I was crazy late on rent.

I'm clean now (coming up on two years!), and it's still hard. I still want it sometimes. But it's easier to work through the cravings now, at least. I'm working on repairing my relationships, but there's (understandably) a lot of mistrust, and I have a lot of work to do.

I'm sorry this turned into a biopic, haha. Don't do heroin, everyone. Not even once, never ever.

Re: tw: suicide

[(Anonymous)]

Congratulations on being two years clean.

Re: tw: suicide

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you! I appreciate it.