[ SECRET POST #3772 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3772 ⌋

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TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

I just went to the kitchen to get a glass of water, and while there I thought "I really should go to bed, but I'm not tired at all. Maybe I should take a melatonin to help. Maybe I should take the whole bottle."

And that last thought wasn't even so much a thought as this visual/feeling combo of me taking them all and being able to sleep forever. And it was such a wonderful feeling for a fleeting second before I sort of caught up with myself and was like "wtf was that?" And then left the kitchen and here I am.

Does anyone else ever have little thoughts like this? These vague intrusive thoughts about self harm or the like? It doesn't happen often, but it's happened before.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

Are you depressed or is this just a random line of thinking for you?

I mean I have suicidal ideation but it's linked to my depression and anxiety and how on most days I don't feel like I'll be able to survive much longer.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

Depression and anxiety. And yeah, I have bouts of suicidal ideation and I've gone through my fair share of being actively suicidal, but that was years ago. These days it's more idle thoughts or random intrusive thoughts like above, so it always strikes me as odd. Like, I'm not actively thinking about suicide, it's honestly not even on my mental radar, but then thoughts like above just pop into my brain.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think it's too much to worry about if you're coping otherwise. I think sometimes our brains just tend to go to random and dark places. People don't always talk about it though because it's well, dark.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

As long as urges to follow up on them don't linger that sounds not common but not unusual either to me

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

all the time. every time I'm driving on this particular stretch of highway, I find myself wondering how fast I'd have to be going to break through the cement guard wall and hit the pavement below.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, I get those. For me it's cos I had major depression as a young teen up to my twenties so the thoughts still pop up now and then even though I'm in a much better place.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

I get those too, i believe they're called intrusive thoughts. They suck.

Re: TW suicidal thoughts...sort of?

[(Anonymous)]

They're very normal and I have heard the best way to deal with them is (kind of counterintuitively) to go "Yep, I could, but I won't." Like when I'm driving I will occasionally get my brain chiming up with "You could totally swerve into oncoming traffic, there's nothing to stop you." Thanks brain, but no thanks, ain't happening now or ever.

A friend reported that his most hilarious one was when sitting with a cat in his lap, he had the sudden thought that he could just pee all over the cat.