[ SECRET POST #4007 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4007 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Pokémon USUM]


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03.
[Moby]


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04.
[Brooklyn 99, Gina Linetti]


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[Guardians of the Galaxy franchise]


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06.
[Illusion of Gaia]


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[Stranger Things]













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Comments

Re: How do you stop..

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not the anon you replied to, but this: "My parents did use the "only nice to people when I wanted something" I probably believed it because I could be very...emotionally volatile and explosive." reminds me of myself. Do you think it's possible for you to have developed an emotionally explosive pattern because anything less was ignored and invalidated?

Re: How do you stop..

[dani_phantasma]

That actually makes sense! My parents never really understood a lot about mental illness aside from my mom having anxiety about one specific thing. and I guess my strange mess of mental issues became a lot to deal with.

I mean when I had severe OCD as a teenager my parents would try to make me feel better or brush it off with "everybody has a little bit of OCD" (was everybody making themselves throw up because of guilt about bad thoughts" at 15? Somehow I don't think so). On one occasion when they were busy and I tried to come to them about my OCD problems my dad initially snapped "Not everything's about you" before stopping to listen to me. I mean I'm glad he eventually listened but hearing that so many times starts to get to you and make you feel really bad about having problems.

And after high school I was really depressed and the next seven years were me trying to get help and attention about it and it frequently getting brushed off unless I had a full on conniption fit.

I don't like getting mad at people and I hate conflict especially being in the center of it. I really do. But I just needed something I wasn't getting and it was increasingly frustrating. It culminated in me having a near suicide attempt when I was 25 the winter after my grandmother died and I had a stressful year. and afterward my parents just took my phone away for a few months, and made sure I knew how much they didn't like paying the bills for my hospital bill.

I started to feel like I'd never get what I was hoping for.

God I probably sound unbearable now.