[ SECRET POST #4711 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4711 ⌋

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[Greedfall]


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Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

We always need at least one.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm a horrible person, I hate myself, I've never been depressed enough to be suicidal but gods I wish I were. Things would be better for everyone if I could just accept that I need to kill myself and proceed with it.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

On Sunday, it'll have been a week since you broke up with me.

How much longer can you sleep easily, I wonder, even knowing the pain you caused? How many beds have you hopped into since then? Because nobody is buying your rhetoric, you know. I want to - not that I want to think it's my fault for being what keeps you from achieving your best self and nothing more; I just want to believe you now like i believed you then. But i can't give you the same benefit of the doubt you had before.

You broke the promises you made over eight years, after all. What's lying compared to that? Easy, isn't it?

Im amazed more people irl havent picked up on this, frankly. Ive gotten better at hiding my sorrow until im safely home, I think. Does that mean i'm worse at trusting? Or did i just sink to the low trust levels i should've had all along? Is it worth opening my heart again when all it leads to is agony?

Better for me to just be quiet, right? That seems to be what you believe.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

My dad owes me $250 (which is about a week's income for me), and gets pissy if I try to remind him to pay me back. It's Christmas! I need that money already! Come the fuck on!

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, so, I *think* I've already had a whinge about this on a previous vent thread, but w/e:
I'm unemployed and disabled. My Disability Employment Provider (which is basically a temp agency that's supposed to specifically consider my disabilities) strongarmed me into a "training course" which pretty much just consists of working for a fast food outlet for 100 hours. Unpaid, of course. Oh, and they'll "probably" offer me a job at the end. Sure.
So first I had The Battle of the Hours: I'm only required by the government to do 15 hours of activity for my DEP every week, because of the whole "disabled" thing. They wanted me to do 25 hours a week at the fast food place, and really dragged their feet on passing on my actual legal requirements. Fortunately the manager at the fast food place just went ahead and scheduled me for 15 hours without waiting for word from on high, but it was rather stressful.
Now I have the quieter but similarly bothersome Someone's Forgotten Their Obligations: see, for thing whole thing to be even vaguely legal (though rather shady, I called my local parliamentary rep and his office said it was messed up and I was right to be mad), the fast food joint has to do a few things in exchange for all this free labour. Mainly, they have to provide *training*. They are not. So I've been taking notes, and when this whole mess eventually wraps up, I hope for the opportunity to rip several people new orifices.

In the meantime, the work sucks and is very boring and the only thing I've learned is how much cross-contamination goes on at this place. (It's like, a lot, my gods.)

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so fed up with that holidays season already. All I could want was, for my friend not to be dead.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

I think my friend is at risk of having another suicidal episode. For context I'm over 200 miles away so we're not exactly geographically close but a few weeks ago I stayed up half the night on a weekend exchanging messages with other people (scattered around the country) trying to find her because she switched off her phone and was reported missing to the police by her mum. She was found by a kind woman walking her dog early the next morning. I was so wiped out I basically passed out at 4am and didn't wake until 6 hours later and I still felt guilty for not staying awake.

But she's been posting more statuses about "people who I care about hate me" and I know she means this absolute loser of a guy who was mentally abusive and basically was the reason she was driven to what she did last time. I have never wished ill on anyone before, not even my worse enemy, but it's getting increasingly difficult not to wish this guy would just drop dead. There's some other stuff I can't really elaborate on that he did before he met my friend (basically, the police were involved) and if I were my friend I wouldn't have touched the guy with a bargepole once I knew but I also understand the desire to forgive and not punish people for past mistakes. From my point of view: not this guy. All my goodwill toward him is fucking gone.

I just don't know what to do. I speak to my friend and tell her she's wanted but sometimes it feels like even if she wants to, she won't listen to me, her mum, my sister, another couple of her close friends or anyone because we're not this one dickhead who messed with her mind.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

Nothing big has gone wrong for me lately *crosses fingers,* but lots of smaller things happened in the last couple days:

It’s finally been raining, which is awesome, but there’s mud everywhere, including my floor, I have a leaky skylight and I’m scared to get on the roof and see what’s going on and also of how much it might cost to fix, I snapped my kitchen sink faucet handle off while making Thanksgiving side dishes yesterday, the tarp blew off the tiny coop and run I keep my disabled hen who can’t walk in, so her bedding got soggy, the main coop is leaking again, one of my hens is limping and I’m afraid it might be bumblefoot, and I must’ve put my good boots away damp last spring because one pair has splits in the leather near the big toes, so they leak, and the other grew mold. And to top it all off, I just dropped a pyrex dish on the tile floor and the motherfucker exploded like a bomb.

And I have to work tomorrow. I don’t work retail, but we’re located in a mall next to an Ikea and a Costco, so I expect things will be crazy busy.

Re: Vent Thread

[tabaqui]

Weeeeeeeeeell....i was gonna vent about a fic/author but now, reading all the other vents, it seems a bit petty.

I hope all you guys have brighter, better, happier days ahead!
*group hug*

Re: Vent Thread

[philstar22]

I'm just frustrated about yesterday because Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays and this year was so miserable. I had panic attacks off and on most of the day that turned out to be pre-migraine symptoms, then had a migraine that hit just as I started eating. So I wasn't able to actually enjoy Thanksgiving at all.

Also, I'm starting to feel antsy. It has been 8 days since my surgery at this point. I hate being this dependent on people, and I'm really starting to miss being able to be on my feet. And I've got 2 more weeks to go.

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

I am so fucking broke! FUUCKKK!

Re: Vent Thread

[(Anonymous)]

I only did one thing today and still overdid it somehow and my CFS is making me feel like I got hit in the face by a truck.

Weekend Plans?

[kaijinscendre]

I am having my Thanksgiving tomorrow so that will be crazy busy. On Sunday, I will be driving home.

What will you all be doing?

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

Just putting my feet up. I'll try and get some art done, do some more sidequests in Far Cry 5 (while I determinedly ignore the main quests, lol), maybe some knitting. If I feel really ambitious, I'll try and get some exercise done - what's annoying about the job I'm doing at the moment is that I'm on my feet all day, but I'm not moving around all that much, so I'm tired and my feet hurt but I haven't done any real exercise. :c

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

There'll be an informal memorial party/let's-drink-to-her-memory tomorrow for a friend whose actual funeral was today but I couldn't attend. Other than that... lay in bed, eat chocolate paste and cry a lot, I guess.

Re: Weekend Plans?

[greghousesgf]

Did a little shopping today for fancy soaps and teas and then hung out at my favorite Irish pub for a whiskey, will be going to somebody's house for a party tomorrow. :)

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

Drive safe! I’ll be working tomorrow. Luckily not retail, but it is in a mall, so I expect things might be nuts. Sunday I’ll be ushering a play and maybe doing some diy sink repair, which I’m scared of, but I think I can do it.

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

Cleaning, reading, attempting to do some writing, maybe baking something...I'm pretty boring. :P

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

My parents are visiting for Thanksgiving and then we won't see each other at Christmas so we were supposed to have Christmas this weekend. But my dad's gift didn't get shipped for three days and then it got lost. We have time before they go home but I'm still bummed. And annoyed that I'll have to make a bunch of phone calls to get his gift that should have been here Tuesday at the latest and now won't be here until Monday at the very soonest :(

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

Sleeping and reading.

Re: Weekend Plans?

[(Anonymous)]

Happy Thanksgiving!
Personally I'll be trying to escape the endless black hole that is reality TV on demand. I've never actually binge watched anything before, let alone stare at a screen endlessly until five in the morning, melting my brain, because there are seven different seasons and I can't seem to look away. I'm not even enjoying it for the most part, it's just this endless loop of neutrality that happens to be very had to escape from.

Re: Weekend Plans?

[tabaqui]

Well, my daughter and bf, brothers, sis in law, and niece were all here yesterday for turkey dinner. First time at my house - so fun!

Today, my litter brother (who stayed over) and made bread, and we're going to make cookies tomorrow for the holidays (and 'cause we can, and why not?) It's fun to hang out with him - we didn't get along all the time as kids, so it's nice we got over that.

And whatever the fuck is up with my muscles/tendons/joint in my hip has finally eased up and i can now walk like person instead of lurching all over, so yay!

I plan to do very little for the rest of the weekend.

Re: Weekend Plans?

[philstar22]

Going to try to get some job applications done tomorrow. Painkillers are honestly making getting much of anything done difficult, but I've been in a lot more pain than expected post-surgery. Will probably also sleep a lot. At least I'm catching up on sleep.

Going to hopefully sort through some music on my computer and decide what to put on my Ipod. And watch some Whose Line.

Finally

[(Anonymous)]

I'm legally allowed to listen to "Fairytale of New York" again