[ SECRET POST #4937 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4937 ⌋

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Re: I want to die

[(Anonymous)]

You're right. There might not be a point. If there is a huge systemic overhaul, we might not even live to see it.

And yes, performative allyship and grandstanding is on full display. Yes, a lot of people--particularly a lot of white, straight, middle class people--will get bored of performing and move on. But those people were never going to stick around anyway, and even if they were, they weren't going to do anything for the movement but make it about themselves. Again, you're right. I don't know who "she" is, but sounds like she did deserve better.

What is being asked of you is exhausting. You are being asked to show up every day and fight for something that seems absolutely impossible against odds that seem insurmountable. And this is going to sound very cliche, but just because they seem that way doesn't mean they are.

It sounds like you don't feel free to grieve, free to mourn, or free to express what you're feeling. I don't know your life situation or what you've been through, I can only say what helped me.

What helped me are steps. When I feel like absolute shit, I give myself permission to take any step, big or small, to feel less like absolute shit. I work my way up to feeling like crap.

Maybe that means just going to sleep. For a long time, it meant chainsmoking. My point is, it doesn't have to be healthy. Just something you can do to hang in there.

Again, I don't know you, but I can tell just from this that we need you around. You're an eloquent writer, and probably a genuine, passionate person.

We need your voice. We need you here. I need you here. Stay with us.