[ SECRET POST #070 ]

[degrees.livejournal.com]

⌈ Secret Post #070 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe.

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Notes:

Early because I may not be back in time otherwise :D

Remember, today's the last day to get your secrets in to show up next week!

Happy 10 week anniversary, F!S ♥ At least... as far as I can figure, as the secrets posts go. 10x7=70 right?

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Comments

[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

eggnogstick. It's a personal issue but very deeply rooted in fandom. The secret's not mine ... but it could be.

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[(Anonymous)]

My sentiments exactly. She's unbelievably manipulative, and like this horrible, sucking... emotional vampire. Preying on your compassion and empathy and friendship and then fucking you over. She did quite a number on me and my friends. It makes me angry to know she continues to do the same to others. And when I've tried to warn them, so few listen. They think I'M the crazy one.

-Just another victim.

[grayout.livejournal.com]

...and I'm going like "watch lol she really gets cancer"

*terrible person*

That's an awful thing to do, though.

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[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

My condolences. I just stopped paying attention to a lot of stuff ages ago, so until recently I was clueless as to what she had done to others.

The worst thing is I doubt any of us are naive people. She was so good at what she did, she played with everyone's emotions, made us all think she was a victim.

I think about the way I spent weeks crying over her ... and now it just makes me really physically ill.

[hughes]

Yeah, you actually kind of hit the nail on the head. XD; Like... some horrible stuff really HAD happened to her to make her so fucked up in the first place, which made it doubly hard to separate the truth from the lies. :| Because on one hand, it was all so unbelievable, but on the other, if she was telling the truth, it'd make us horrible people to question it.

Yeah. She left a huge mess. x_x

[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

My sister who is diagnosed as being borderline did the exact same thing to her friends. And it destroyed them.

What is wrong with some people? o_O;

[longlongwaytogo.livejournal.com]

*confused*

[grayout.livejournal.com]

They want to be helpless and worried over and need to know for sure'n have like concrete evidence that people care about them or something so they turn themselves into victims and make stuff up to be victimized by even if nothing exists 'cause they're insecure? :D

/random psychobabble stuff

I think in certain instances a healthy dose of like, egoism is good, 'cause if you're all "what you mean my friends don't care, of COURSE they care, how could they not" then... huge load off everybody's backs. *dies*

[grayout.livejournal.com]

*dies* Makes me glad I've never heard of her. Sorry you guys had to go through that.

[hughes]

Nah, it was a guy--Gene was his name, I think?

Ugh, yeah, Emily told me a little bit about how you got out. I kind of feel guilty about Emily, too, since she met her through me. :/ It still feels pretty surreal that burningvigor and I met her in RL... and even then, she had a self-pity-filled, emotional crisis that probably had more of a basis in fiction than fact. Ugh, but I still wonder.

I also have lingering suspicions that she might have stolen my friend's laptop when she spent that time with us in RL. :/ That might just be a total coincidence that it went missing, along with my own paranoia but... a photo she showed me later of her using an incidentally similar laptop at some salon made me wonder.

[some-kat.livejournal.com]

...Aw, dammit. Rule 34 DX

[hughes]

Yeah, the less people who know her the better. :[ I'd give her LJ name as a warning, but I think she feels too "cool" to hang around and do much fandom stuff on LJ nowadays. But anyway, thanks for hearing that out. XD <3

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[fandomfreak.livejournal.com]

8. This made me giggle. XD

9. I feel the same way. <3

[hughes]

They want to be helpless and worried over and need to know for sure'n have like concrete evidence that people care about them or something so they turn themselves into victims and make stuff up to be victimized by even if nothing exists 'cause they're insecure? :D

That sounds about right. =_= Of course, all they do in the end is hurt other people.

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[hughes]

The worst thing is I doubt any of us are naive people. She was so good at what she did, she played with everyone's emotions, made us all think she was a victim.

Very true. :/

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[hughes]

I believe you! D: <3 And god, I know how that is, when someone is so good at playing emotional games that no one believes you when you've figured them out. Not just in regards to her, either.

Ugh, although I definitely didn't get the worst of what she did, I still can't believe I fell for what I did get for so long. I just sort of started to notice more and more things about her, you know? Inconsistencies, jabs of cruelty in IM conversations, and how bad things always seemed to happen to her. Finally, I found myself instinctively avoiding her and wondering why.

Then I thought back and kinda figured it out.

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[(Anonymous)]

(Not the OP, but another who'd like to remain anonymous.)

*hug* That's terrible. :/ But I can sympathize. I was suckered in, too.

She was definitely a convincing liar. I think the worst part, for me, was realizing everything was fake, even (and especially) our friendship. I was stunned by how gullible I'd been, on top of how truly sick the girl must be to pull what she does.

When karma comes knocking, I'll be damned glad I'm not her. As awful and callous as it sounds... if she ever ends up really getting cancer, I can't say I'll be too surprised. Or sympathetic.

[(Anonymous)]

4. HOW CAN THEY MISS THE SUBTEXT? D: Yeah, I mean. That's sorta all I want too. XD I just want some acknowledgement, here!

And haha your icon. <3

[(Anonymous)]

Aww, you're lucky; see, my mom doesn't even know MY LIFE IS FANDOMS. And slash in fandoms. D: I mean, I can't imagine her minding that much, but. It's sort of a weird thing to uh. Confess. XD

Man. Those vibes. That eyesex. XDDD <3

[lostremnant.livejournal.com]

Man this sounds like someone who frequented a gamer's forum that I was part of a few years ago and who told a bunch of pitable stories about herself that we later found were lies.

Then a supposed rl friend posted that this girl had committed suicide. We were a close knit gaming group at the time and the whole community was just stunned. Several people felt incredible guilt, posting how they felt they should have been able to prevent it.

You probably can see where this is going. Yep, the "real life friend" who had posted the suicide news was the same girl with a different account. She had faked her own suicide and then had sat back and read all the grieving posts about her.

There are some really sick people out there.

[chaoticchicken.livejournal.com]

14. BIG WORD. I listen to mine all the time, along with the first, second, and third movies' soundtracks...

15. ANOTHER BIG WORD. I'm like a rabid scavenger in MMORPGS - if it's on the ground for more than 5 seconds, I'm nabbing it.

[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

People need help.

Everyone's looking for someone to 'care' about them, and really if you're honest someone out there will come to care about you. Had she been an honest friend I wouldn't have not cared about her, but I suppose she just needed something more to solidify it. I was always wanting to protect her from something because she was so very young when I first met her. And really, she was completely brainwashing me with her crap. When she mentioned me in her journal I got isanely happy and flattered and loved. And when she didn't I'd emo over it.

She did a real number on me for about six months and then was a presence in my life for years after. And I know she did the exact same thing to others and it makes me sick because I didn't spot it early on. I didn't jerk her around and tell her to stop with her whining and DO something to help herself.

And she's probably doing it to someone else now. All of us got tired of her shit, we grew up, moved on, saw between the lies. And some poor kid's getting the same treatment now in all likelihood. x_x

[brittania.livejournal.com]

4-ME TOO. She's already for House/Cuddy, so it won't be too big a jump for H/W.

...right?

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[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this realization came kind of late for me after I didn't care any longer ... but, it still irks me a lot to know that she just led me on from the start and have no qualms against doing it again and again. It's funny how well you can know someone without knowing them at all. Nothing was ever real. It was just a bunch of lies. At least for her.

I was in love with her at one time, I'm not really sure why ... but I was. And those feelings were real even if it were for a person who was a complete lie.

Karma is going to eventually take its course. She's done too much and never regretted it to get away with this.

My sympathies.

[klytaemnestra.livejournal.com]

Ah yes, Gene. He was allegedly a really hot Asian guy, but I have no idea if this was true or her just trying to make him more appealing to me at the time. o_O

I remember that you all went to AX in 2005 I believe -- correct me if I'm confusing something here -- because she was talking to me at that time and gushing over it.

I really wouldn't doubt it, yanno. I'd like to think otherwise, but I really can't. She lied about everything and if you can't trust someone to be honest to the people who care about them, what can be said about any other moral standards most of us abide by?