[ SECRET POST #5154 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #5154 ⌋

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Comments

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

I'm older than you and no man has ever thought I was attractive due to my facial difference. I gave up over twenty years ago when a "close friend" began telling me to "try dating downwards"-- to date unattractive men I didn't want.

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

I don't understand that advice, regardless of who you are or who you are likely to date. If you're trying to find someone you fit with, why wouldn't you have standards? That's how you end up in shitty relationships.

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt
he said that i wasn't attractive enough to get the types of men i wanted, that i was unattractive, and should date appropriately. he said that i would only get a couple of dates for coffee or whatever, implying that i'm too unattractive to get more dates or commit to.

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

DA

Wow. What a dick.

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

ayrt
Yep, he is a piece of shit.

Re: for all your venting needs

[(Anonymous)]

My issues aren't the same as yours, I think, but the end point is similar.

I don't have any obvious birth defects or big scars, I'm just plain and fat, but I read as, idk, slow? Or at least intellectually disabled (I mean, I have tons of mental issues, but so far as I know my IQ is in the normal range, I read constantly, I have a bachelor's degree and a full time job working with books... I'm probably autistic or something similar, but I never got diagnosed or anything.)

So people who hit on me, back when I got hit on, tended to be creeps, like the PTA mom who used to pick me up from high school and give me creepy compliments that people told me I was misconstruing, until she told me "I'm naked under my bathrobe," and I started walking the 4 miles home.

But then I got followed by a group of guys from school for a couple weeks chanting "rug, rug," because someone (female, presumably) had told one of them I didn't shave my pubes--I tried not to look at anyone else in the locker room because ffs I didn't want to see any of my classmates naked, but apparently it was just another bullying opportunity for them.

The only times I got kissed were in middle and high school when people dared each other to for money, while I tried to get away and freaked out at being cornered.

My late teens and early 20s involved catcalls and being followed and groped and propositioned (and stalked a couple times) but no flirting, no dates.

Some of the people who did that shit were attractive, I guess, physically.

I think of myself as asexual because I never had any positive memories or experiences of anything sexual, so while the idea of sex in the abstract is fine, I can't picture myself doing anything sexual (or even kissing) without freaking out.

At least I wasn't raised in the weird controlling ignorance of religious purity culture--I think I'd be even more fucked up, then. I just wish I had any good memories of romance/sexual stuff at all, especially today. When I'm not a hormonal mess I don't think about all the bad memories, but they fucking suck.