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Stress and venting.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm trying not to be too specific here for privacy reasons, but it just seems like life lately has been this unrelenting series of stressful events. None of them are total disasters all on their own, it's just they keep coming like I'm stuck on a factory line of shitty things that roll out on the conveyor belt of Life Says Get Fucked one after the other. Each time I think okay, I've solved the problem and can take a deep breath and relax, WHAM another stressful, shitty thing happens.

What makes it worse is that as I've gotten older, I don't have the mental or physical resources for this anymore. I feel so tired and defeated and depressed. There's no time or money to do many of the things I used to enjoy that gave me peace. I can't even binge Netflix and stress-eat in peace because I have medical conditions that means I've got to watch my diet or things will get even worse, and then something else comes along and it's all hands on deck time again. I've got frequent killer headaches, I'm tired all the time and the cherry on the sundae is that stress now gives me an upset stomach. I get stress diarrhea, you guys. Plus heartburn on occasion. As you can imagine, this is super unhelpful. Like I'm running around trying to do this or that or get a hold of that person or deal with this financial issue and oh yes, have 2-3 sessions of destroying a toilet, then chugging Pepto afterwards. God, I hate my body sometimes.

If I won the lottery, I would quit my job and leave my whole damn life behind and start again somewhere else, but I can't do that now. I just want to lie in bed with the covers over my head and not have to deal with anyone or anything forever.

Re: Stress and venting.

[(Anonymous)]

as I've gotten older, I don't have the mental or physical resources for this anymore.

Hoo boy do I feel this. I'm always wondering if it is just something that happens to everyone as they get older, or a consequence of never being properly medicated or treated for mental illness (anxiety and depression, mostly) and it's a form of burn out. But things I used to be able to deal with seem to just break me now. My coping strategies just aren't working the same.

I also feel you on the diet and stress thing. Sometimes all I want to do is veg out and play video games while munching on chocolate or whatever, but I have so many dietary problems that I am severely limited in what I can eat, and the things I can eat I have to have in small portions. I haven't been to a doctor (poor, american, uninsured) but I know part of it is anxiety and stress causing more intestinal and stomach problems. But how do you destress to fix the problem when the problem is causing the stress?

I wish I could find a pot of gold for both of us. All I really want is a small farm with some land and to just live with the seasons. Work in the garden and with the animals in Spring/Summer/Fall and then hibernate and cook and read by the fire in Winter. But I don't even have a rental to myself nevermind owning a house and land.

Idk I have no help for you, but know that as I read your vent all I could think was "yes yes yes, I could have written this" in both a "Yes! We are not alone!" way and a "oh no, someone else is in this horrible life" way. *hugs*

Re: Stress and venting.

[(Anonymous)]

Same. A million dollars wouldn't fix all my problems, but holy shit would it fix most of them and make the rest bearable if only because I would be able to rest.

Re: Stress and venting.

[philstar22]

I feel this so much. And up until yesterday, I was honestly feeling completely out of control, wanting to just walk away from everything, having no idea what to do, feeling just terrified.

Also, the killer headaches is a major thing for me. I get more and more migraines, and meds will work for a while and then not. We keep trying new things, but I keep getting more migraines. I'm on this facebook group of fellow migraine sufferers, and a lot of them are fully disabled at this point. I'm so scared I'm going to end up there.

I really, really hope things get better for you soon, nonny. I really, really do. All the sympathy.

Re: Stress and venting.

[(Anonymous)]

Feel the same in many ways. And aging is a bitch, you gotta be careful. Currently looking for some better or uplifting stuff, or some kind of outlet where I can interact with humans in a safe environment. I just want to be normal and not too cold or way too clingy. The struggle to find the balance is real, especially when you have reasons to not be normal and know how judgmental that both the haves and the have-nots in denial can be. (Sorry, that was kind of vague but specific to me... and maybe to some other folk out there)

So true about money too. To stop short of saying something political, I'll just offer that there are better people in charge in the near future, and are able to do things to ease all of our burdens in some way. Financially definitely. Hope you're able to experience something that at least takes away some of the stress soon. We humans aren't meant to be in a constant state of survival.

Re: Stress and venting.

[(Anonymous)]

So sorry you're dealing with that. I honestly really appreciate you and others sharing in this thread because I've been feeling really guilty for taking time off from working for mental and physical health (I'm very lucky that my wife and I are in a secure enough situation that I can do this). I don't mean to brag about being able to take a break, you've just reminded me of the seriousness of needing to and that I shouldn't force myself past my limits if I don't truly have to, because y'all who have had to are dealing with a lot because of it. I wish you guys could get some relief, before I could leave my last job it was really hurting my body.

Requests and Reccomendations

[(Anonymous)]

Looking for something specific? Ask here.

Audiobooks

[(Anonymous)]

I have a 12hr car ride coming up and I am looking for a good engaging audiobook. My last long drive like this I listened to Project Hail Mary and it was amazing. I don't know if anything can really top that, but I'd like to try.

Re: Requests and Reccomendations

[philstar22]

Places to find icons that can be used here. I've got a few blogs I follow, but they aren't updated particularly frequently. I just want some more icons I can use. Especially Rings of Power, but anything I'm into really.

Re: Requests and Reccomendations

[(Anonymous)]

Anybody know any good Tashigi x Zoro fic? Preferably where she's not surprise!Kainu?
Anything from rated G/Gen fic about them to three out of three chilis. Thank you!

As I always do, starting with the fic before I actually get into the show.

[(Anonymous)]

Curious because of an above thread mentioning it.

How big, or rather small, of a lottery would you have to win to feel comfortable dropping your job/career path/current responsibilities?

Obviously like '2 trillion dollars' is an answer for everyone but estimate minimums

[kaijinscendre]

I think I could live on one million. As long as I don't go crazy and live like I am now, I'd be good.

[(Anonymous)]

About two million should do it. One million would take care of my debts, set up all the things I need that I've been working towards, take care of healthcare, and get my family in a better place. Then, given a cash rate of return (3%), one million would continue to pay my monthly expenses for about 20 years.

[(Anonymous)]

I think minimum wouod be 1million, but confort zone wouod be 2. Obviously 50million wouod nit be tirned down, bit I thinknif I won one or two million lottery I would pay off my debt, buy a house, and live happily ever after.

Tbh I probably wouldn't even quit my job. My jobs last 2-3 years and then I move to the next placement. I would finish this specific placement and then just not get another one.

[(Anonymous)]

2-5 million and me and my beloved could retire. I'd want to cover all our major debts and still have an emergency fund for health issues on top of a little bit of money to live off of.

[(Anonymous)]

About 5 million. That would give my family the room to build our dream house, fill it with the things we want, buy cars, and have plenty left over to invest in a variety of ways while still providing us a generous living allowance (groceries, healthcare, insurance, pet supplies, and a cleaning service because it takes half my spoons to do all the housework and I dream of being able to afford to hire someone to help me every other week or so). We won’t even want anything extravagant but our dream location is by the water so that drives up costs plus we’ll want kayaks and stuff, things that families accumulate over a long time but we would get instantly.

[(Anonymous)]

I think $1.5 million would be actually reasonable. I would probably say $2.2 million is the point at which I would actually feel comfortable.

[(Anonymous)]

There is no amount that would make me quit working. When I've taken non-vacation breaks from work I have had to deal with major mental health downturn that result from a lack of routine. Retirement would likely result in me being committed.

[(Anonymous)]

Minimum 2 million to quit my job, and even then I think I'd try to find another job that was less stressful even if it paid less. Two million would give me the freedom to not be stuck and too afraid to move from a crap job in case I can't find better employment.

I'd feel more comfortable at 5+million, though. Our house is old and needs a lot of renovation work, we both drive old cars where I worry constantly about them dying and leaving us stranded somewhere, I have health issues that will require lifelong medication and might get worse and I'm American...probably don't need to explain the whole health insurance situation. I don't plan to live like a crazy rich person with mansions and yachts, but I don't want to ever have to worry about money again.

[(Anonymous)]

Idk, 5 million? I'd probably have to spend close to a million to bring my house up to code and get it insured, and then I could live comfortably off the interest of the other 4. I actually have several years before my pension is vested at my job, though, which I need to keep at no matter what because it doesn't pay into Social Security at all.

So once I was vested, I would "buy" work years, which is super expensive, to max out my pension, and then retire. Because I want to be certain I can pay for long term old age care if I need it. I have two uncles left, both in their 70s. No spouse, kids, siblings, or cousins.

So long as I didn't need the pension payouts, I'd just donate them.

[(Anonymous)]

If I were to be really all about me, possibly $2mil (like, without tax in the picture so a solid $1mil post tax for anyone who is fretting over that) would be enough for me to get things in order so that I can be certain that I can live comfortably for the rest of my life.

If I'm going to be more realistic, I can see people already throwing a hand out to me asking for help the second they hear I won the lotto and IDK duty-bound Asian habits are hard to kick so I'd want an extra $1mil just to throw at my family and friends to pay off debts and (naively) hope they don't bother me for the rest of my life.

[(Anonymous)]

5-10 million dollars. Pay off everything, fund all the kids’ college funds, fully fund a retirement account, and have really good emergency funds.

[(Anonymous)]

Between 500K and 1M. Sell my flat, buy a slight bigger one in a less expensive town, invest to live off the rest, have some money left for family and friends.

Pooping dwarves

[(Anonymous)]

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