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F!S Anon Meme (the Fifth)

Secrets, rants, opinions, anything you want to say about your fandom or a fandom or fandom in general, do it here! Anonymously, of course. Get it all off your chest.

(LJ's still lagging here and there, good luck.)

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The biggest favor I ever did myself was to realize that my life, in the literal sense, was worth more than the convenience of other people.

From the moment I graduated high school, it seemed like everything I did was shit. I had to quit college twice, I couldn't get more than a part-time job, and I never moved away from my Mom. I was a burden that she hadn't planned for, and for a while I thought that killing myself would somehow make things 'even'. Things didn't start to get better until I finally told myself that the purpose of my life was to LIVE, to get out of bed at least once a day and eat and possibly brush my teeth, and that anything on top of that would have to be for me and no one else. I stopped making it about individual successes or failures and more about what I could do to be happy. I'm back in college now, but I've still never had a full time job. And anyone who says I should be married by now or have a career gets quietly laughed at, because those things are not what I get out of bed for.

Maybe none of this is even remotely useful for you, but my main point is this: your life is worth something, completely aside from whatever you may or may not accomplish with it. You're a person, not a project that must meet a certain set of goals or else be terminated.

There are a lot of legitimate reasons to commit suicide, and I won't say despair isn't one of them. But it is one of the likeliest to pass with time. You can fail at something, but you cannot BE a failure. And you are NOT a waste.