[ SECRET POST #1925 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #1925 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 03 pages, 070 secrets from Secret Submission Post #275.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big ], [ 1 - repeat (same text, different image) ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Funny, today is the day I finally decided to say fuck the system and admit I'll probably commit suicide within a year due to my own mental illness.

Honestly? Your reasons and path is much smarter and I'm glad someone is getting help they deserve and need. Who cares the motivation, you're doing something about your situation and that's awesome.

[(Anonymous)]

Don't die, please. ;_;

I know I don't know you but don"t die.

[(Anonymous)]

da

People have reasons to stay alive, and other people don't have reasons not to kill themselves. It happens.

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, right. I don't know if you're trying to be edgy or cynical of what, but mental illnesses always have the potential to be cured, and that in itself is a reason not to kill oneself. The OP of this thread is not a character in some dismal French or Russian novel -- help is still available, help may even be plentiful, and chances are there is at least one person who will be badly harmed by the OP's suicide. The OP likely just hasn't been able to find the right path for recovery yet.

Don't listen to this creep, thread OP. If the OP of the secret can manage to get back into the mental health care system and work toward recovery, even for such a petty reason as becoming able to write fanfiction again, you can, too. And -- as invasive and presumptuous as this sounds -- I'm sure that you'll be doing someone else a good deed by staying alive, not just yourself. Please keep on trying.

[(Anonymous)]

We're all gonna die some day. Sounds like faux!concern to me. You cannot decide what the reasons for someone else's existence should be, or deem them neither worthy nor unworthy.

However, death is final and if you've had a rough life/time, sometimes there's all the more reason to seek some chances to balance it out. Don't make a decision hastily. Rushing into making up your mind only means you're desperate, not that you have figured out the right thing to do for yourself.

[(Anonymous)]

This. If the system can't or won't help, keep looking for something that does, Anon. To quote a favorite character: 'I don't care if it's love or spite or a ten-dollar bet.' Or a James Doohan who wants to see you at the next con or the next episode of your favorite TV show (*raises hand*) or the fanfic you haven't written yet or a picture or song or favorite food you want to enjoy again.

Please don't give up on the system either, for that matter; I know what a nightmare it can be, but sometimes it's the tenth or the hundredth time you try that it finally, finally works as it was meant to.

[(Anonymous)]

Not to take over the OPs secret thread or anything, but seriously, I'm not actively planning suicide at the moment, but I've been fighting this battle for thirty years and it has not gotten one iota of better. I went to the Drs today to try and get back on medication, and was rejected flat out. No doctor, no meds, no nothing. I don't qualify for my country's health care, can't afford to pay my own, there are no free clinics anywhere in my area, I've tried herbal and natural remedies, tried diet and exercise....I've got to finally admit defeat. There is absolutely nothing available to me, and quite honestly there's really nothing I'm contributing to the world. Some lives just aren't that important. The world will go on without me and be a fine place, I assure you.

Just to reiterate: not actively planning suicide. I just see it as the inevitable outcome to my life.

[emerald1972.livejournal.com]

I am the OP of the secret, I don't mind outing myself in a situation like this. Anon, if you want to message me with where you live, I'd be more than happy to do some searching around and see if I can find any services that might be helpful for you. I know what it's like when you feel trapped by that feeling of hopelessness, and feel like you don't have the energy to care. Your situation actually sounds similar to mine. I had my first psychotic depressive episode when I was around 19, and I'm 39 now. It took me 20 years to get a proper diagnosis, and to finally find some decent help. Before that Doctors were either throwing the wrong sorts of pills at the problem, which only made things worse, or they were fobbing me off as some sort of attention seeking, neurotic woman. I learnt to hide my symptoms, and not talk about them, until recently. I had all but given up on the mental healthy system, or ever getting better too, but I'm glad now that I didn't. It's always worth giving something one more try, you never know what can happen.