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⌈ Secret Post #2103 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Derren Brown - Trick of the Mind]

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[Quantum Leap]

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[Necessary Roughness]

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07. http://imageshack.us/a/img811/3861/tumblrm9siebsjna1rym8lc.jpg
[nudity which is possibly sexual? / illustrated]

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[Team Starkid]

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[Teen Wolf]

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[Evangelion]

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[High School of the Dead]

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15. [SPOILERS for Teen Wolf]

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16. [SPOILERS for Everything Burns/Journey Into Mystery]

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17. [SPOILERS for To Boldly Flee]

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18. [SPOILERS for Lord of the Rings]

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19. [SPOILERS for Homestuck]

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20. [WARNING for rape]

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Inspired by secret 20 in today's post. It got me thinking about a rather curious reaction I have to being hurt, and seeing fictional people get hurt.

Have you ever felt... at peace when your body's totally fucked up or in the process of fucking up? Like I felt totally calm and detached after I came out of a seizure. Same with a few broken fingers; after the initial pain, I was sort of floating. Almost like an altered state of being?

I like watching people get badly hurt or be ill in movies/shows because it triggers the same sort of emotional response I felt when I was injured or ill. A sort of peace and detached calm.

That sounds like shock, frankly. Or at least the way I've always experienced shock--I get a bit dizzy, but then I look at whatever injury I have and immediately want to fiddle with it, like it isn't part of my body at all. I also get really happy when I'm injured and the pain has gone away, or when I'm giving blood. Weird mentality.

It probably is shock. It's a pretty comforting place to go to. After I broke my fingers I spent most of the day just sort of existing? It was surreal.

it sounds a bit like sub-space... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Subspace_%28BDSM%29

That's... okay ngl that sounds close but more fetishistic than what I feel.

I guess depersonalization when exposed to repeated physical trauma is normal then? idk

I've had that experience except usually there's a distinct feeling of heaviness in the bottom of my stomach that "anchors" me from floating out of my body. And sometimes if it was prompted by something severe after it wore off adrenaline would make me sick up or I would shake.

I mostly came here to say what above anon said about subspace (& endorphins).

Lately I've been able to somewhat access the sensation without any outside stimuli just by focusing intently on my memories of it. Sort of like a meditative state. But if I don't do it correctly I get dizzy and panicked.

Huh. Yeah, no anchors for me. I distinctly remember shaking really bad and having that metallic taste of adrenaline in my mouth after watching my father get trampled by a cow, but thankfully I didn't throw up.

You know that subspace thing makes sense. I think, in general terms, it's probably depersonalizing yourself when exposed to repeated physical trauma. Your body just sort of refused to make cognizant connections to your brain.

Speaking of accessing it outside of it happening, I totally hear you. I've to the point where if I can't deal with normal safe life, I can go back to the state of those feelings. It's safer than feeling safe, I guess.

I totally understand. I think it's an intensity thing? It overloads your senses so much that your mind and body kind of kicks into a different gear that you're not used to and it can feel really euphoric and powerful in some ways sometimes because the experience is just so extreme and over-the-top compared to your default state.

I get the same thing with intense emotions. When I'm calm, I tend to say "um" a lot and talk a little rambling-ly with lots of qualifications and backtracking, but when I'm utterly furious or devastated or terrified, I'm absolutely crystal clear and direct and concise, because it's like my brain is operating on a completely different level and processing and filtering information in a completely different way.

Could be endorphins. Some people get hit by it like a truck after sufficient pain or anything physically strenuous ("runner's high") or stressful. I say "some people" because personally I just hurt.

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