[ SECRET POST #2306 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2306 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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06. http://i.imgur.com/oVNCgcT.png
[kind of porny, illustrated, Hetalia]


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[Pokemon]


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09. [SPOILERS for Kingdom Hearts]



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10. [SPOILERS for Spartacus]
http://i.imgur.com/OtBhrXi.png
[gore? kind of, i think, live-action]


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11. [SPOILERS for Game of Thrones]



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12. [WARNING for rape]



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13. [WARNING for child abuse]



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14. [WARNING for loli/shota]



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Comments

[fscom]

14. [WARNING for loli/shota]
http://i.imgur.com/ASzeuGJ.jpg

[(Anonymous)]

I could have written this. I was WAY into this awful kink when I was young enough to BE the loli... now I'm an adult and I'm seriously wondering if something happened that I blocked out (it turns out I do have suppressed vague childhood memories that scare the fuck out of me... like details pop up in my head and I panic and block it out... so... might be something there)

In any case, the sexual curiosity of a child is not inherently evil so the fact that you were intrigued by this when you were young isn't too weird.

[(Anonymous)]

Creepy and guilt-inducing as it is I don't think this is all that uncommon - I've seen a few accounts from other people who said they sought out that kind of thing when they were young because they wanted to fantasize about people their own age, and didn't realize the implications (normalizing/glorifying child abuse) at the time.

[badass_tiger]

A little sexual curiosity isn't bad. At least you grew out of it. When I was younger, I had a teacher/student fetish and now the thought of that kind of relationship mostly makes me sick. Just as long as nothing bad came of it, you don't have to be ashamed of it.

[(Anonymous)]

same. i was super into that power/age dynamic... up until i got old enough that men my age wanted some one WAY too young for them, who was naive and did everything sexual that they told her too. i suddenly was disgusted by it and now i can't even think about it without getting upset. eventually i'll probably calm down and be able to separate fantasy and reality...but seeing the reality up close? really fucked with my head (and self esteem a bit too... no man wants the fat same-age woman who isn't submissive/naive/a bit dumb)

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah when I was young I exclusively fantasized about older guys wanting me. Now that I'm an adult, the immature older men who pursue that kind of fantasy disgust me.

[(Anonymous)]

When I was eight years old I had elaborate BDSM fantasies involving me, other girls my own age, and an older woman that kept us as slaves. I also had probably the most "normal" upbringing ever. I don't think there's anything for you to be disgusted with--it was you, at that age, having sexual curiosity. Obviously you didn't hold onto it, and matured quite normally. You're totally fine, OP. ♥

[(Anonymous)]

When I was eight years old I had elaborate BDSM fantasies involving me, other girls my own age, and an older woman that kept us as slaves.
Are you me?

Okay, so my fantasies were about a mixed sex group of children my own age, but...

[(Anonymous)]

omg I had BDSM fantasies at that age too

not any group scenarios and never really with anyone older... and hell half the time they were barely sexual, i just was SUPER CRAZY intrigued at getting tied up

... i drew some cartoons of it once. my mom found them. we had the most uncomfortable talk EVER.

i kind of blocked those thoughts for a loooong time after that o.o;

[(Anonymous)]

When you were eight?! Now I feel like a super late bloomer concerning my sex fantasies. And here I thought I was speshul.

[(Anonymous)]

I can't even deal right now because I am so relieved to now know that I wasn't strange for having similar fantasies at that age.

[(Anonymous)]

When I was a kid I had a lot of strange BDSM fantasies that seemingly came out of nowhere. My parents were pretty conservative so they never let me watch any movies or see tv shows or read books with sex in them or and never gave me "the talk". I didn't even really know what sex entailed until years later junior high so I worried about where I had gotten all that stuff from.

I guess I always wondered if maybe I was just secretly a horrible sexual deviant and I just didn't know it, so I'm actually really glad to hear that this is a thing other people went through, too. Makes me feel a lot better.

[(Anonymous)]

Now that I think about it... yeah, I had weird elaborate fantasies involving my eventual kinks as a child. I didn't quite connect them as sexual, mainly because I had no concept of what sex or sexuality even was until I read Carrie as a teenager (sheltered? moi?), but they were there.

[(Anonymous)]

SAME

[(Anonymous)]

Makes sense to me.

[(Anonymous)]

Mhhh, but when you were in the position of the victim, why should you feel bad for fantasizing about it *now*?

When I was 14 I was often fantasizing about a hot het couple abducting me and keeping me as their little sex pet. I actually can laugh about this fantasy nowadays because it was so full of "little animu catgirl" shit X)

[(Anonymous)]

You are far from alone, and you shouldn't beat yourself up or feel bad. You didn't do anything that hurt anyone, not then and not now. You're okay.

[(Anonymous)]

It makes sense to me that children wish to read about characters around their age, and fanfiction seems to be a place to explore certain interests not easily explorable at that age.

[illiadandoddity]

I actually think this is super-common. When I was thirteen, I had no problem shipping little kids, and not just in an innocent way. I was still a kid myself, but God knows I was thinking of sex as a pre-teen, so I saw nothing skeevy about acting out my adolescent fantasies through a character my own age.

And you know what? There isn't anything skeevy about young people shipping young people. In fact, I'd argue that it's a normal part of your development, learning about your sexual desires and learning them. I'm less and less comfortable with shipping kids the older I get, but that's because I don't identify with the kids as much anymore.

[(Anonymous)]

At least you didn't have any metaphorical Annabel Lees dying around you at that age.

We might be worried otherwise.

[(Anonymous)]

lol I love how this thread turned into "let's all overshare about our childhood sex fantasies"

[(Anonymous)]

When I was twelve I fantasised about being a superhero who was twelve but passed for an adult to seduce and capture enemies. It never progressed to full sex, which probably should have been a sign I was gonna turn out asexual in later life... But this thread is kinda making me feel less weird about that.

[(Anonymous)]

I've had rather graphic rape fantasies since I was very young, probably 7 or 8. Most of the time I was the victim, but once in a while I'd turn it around and imagine I was an older man molesting a young kid (I was a tiny little ginger girl). Around 11 or 12 I started realizing how strange that was and desperately tried to stop thinking about it.
Now in my mid-20s I have a long-term partner who shares pretty much every one of my kinks and we do elaborate sexual roleplays about abuse, rape, pedophilia, etc etc... I used to feel SO bad about it, but once I realized I had no interest in *actual* children I started to chill out about it.

[(Anonymous)]

I have the same 'problem'. It started as an age difference kink and just escalated. I recently realised I have some powerful daddy issues, so I think it might be related. Now I'm grossed out by the memory and turned on at the same time.

[(Anonymous)]

At least you didn't get into loli\shota at a young age just to see the creepy as hell comments on Leslita and Gelbooru. I couldn't shake that trainwreck-syndrome for two years! Granted most of them are probably trolls in hindsight, but damn...