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Secrets, rants, opinions, anything you want to say about your fandom or a fandom or fandom in general, do it here! Anonymously, of course. Get it all off your chest.

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1. Going anon is encouraged but not absolutely required (for those who struggle with recaptchas and stuff).
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3. No dropping personal info or IRL contact info, etc.

That's about it, though!

(Today's post is below.)

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Re: Awkward crushes

[(Anonymous)]

Several college professors. Usually I just had to wait until the semester was over and I no longer had class with them. I did notice one of my history professors got President syndrome and super-aged in between me having him sophomore year and seeing him in the halls my senior year. And I'm not saying it was just a perception on my end, he physically looked more tired and haggard; he was also going through PhD dissertations/defenses/other shenanigans which was probably part of it.

And then there was this one guy. We were good friends, shared both classes and fandoms. Like the professors were just little crushes. This boy's been my one time full on major crush. Almost nothing about him annoyed me, even though there were several things that definitely would've if it'd been someone else. I pulled the "super tired on a trip let me oh so casually nod off and use your shoulder for a pillow" move; it was fantastic.

The only problem is that he had a girlfriend. A sweet, perfect, beautiful girlfriend that lived in Canada. A long distance relationship that they'd been keeping strong for years. They didn't have a single huge fight or temp breakup in the four years I knew him. So I let the shoulder thing be the farthest I ever got with him. Luckily - or unluckily - he stopped taking the elective class(es) we were in and, with me not actively pursuing the connection, we gradually stopped seeing each other.

I'm split because I would've have loved to have been closer to him for longer, but it wouldn't have been fair to me, him, or his girlfriend. So ultimately I don't regret the decisions I made.

Re: Awkward crushes

[(Anonymous)]

OP here - Wow that is so difficult. I really appreciate your honesty and you sound like such a genuine person, also you write very well!

I think you did the right thing, and I'm glad you managed to have that shoulder moment and then be self-aware enough to leave it at that and not let yourself go further. That must have been quite difficult to do, but that choice makes it crystal clear that you are highly respectful of both him as a friend, and his relationship with his girlfriend.

You post has kind of inspired me to do the right thing in my situation - to enjoy our friendship as just that, a friendship, and not to keep dwelling on how good a couple we might be if circumstances were different. That way lies madness! Thanks anon, you sound like an awesome person <3